Monday, December 31, 2007
I guess it has been a great year for me.
Though I am still stuck with epilepsy, but I grew up psychologically and spiritually.
Been through quite a lot, did more acting and performing than anything else, which yes, I did enjoy.
But in the year 2008, I hope to earn more money and be a blessing to people around me. I want to do what God wants me to do. To give more of my time and love to people in my life, to bring them to their feet when they fall. Another thing is, I hope to write more poems and plays, hone up my writing skills.
2007's Christmas Musical was wonderful! No words can describe how much I love it, how much I love the teamwork and the effort everyone has put in. And of course, how loving and great is our God.
I want to thank my family for being so loving and understanding towards me, though sometimes I could be quite stubborn. Thanks a gazillionz Daddy, Mommy and Artie.
Also, I want to thank my bunch of close friends who never failed to care and cheer me up and always making me feel important. *muacks* to Lou and Zac, Nic, Jocelyn.
Of course not forgetting my darling sister: Marianne dearie. Thanks gurl for everything, for being so understanding of my busy schedule, never blaming me, never laying guilt traps on me. Love you dear.
Last but not least, my OIKOS family. You guys are great manz. You never know how much I appreciate you guys for treating me like an adult but at the same time doting on me and caring so much about me.
So much for 2007, it's time for 2008.
I'm sure 2008 will be a greater and more fufilling year than before.
I throw my arms wide open to embrace the coming year.
Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008!
Monday, December 17, 2007
Altar call was to receive God's love, and to have the assurance that God loves everyone of us.
Many went forward for the altar call, including me.
Some say that we lack of self-assurance, or lack of faith.
Well, sorry but I beg to differ.
In life, not everything is smooth-sailing, we may fall, get tired or totally exhausted.
To go for altar call does not necessarily mean that we do not have faith or self-assurance, we just need encouragement from God, a touch from the Lord.
In fact, the willingness to step out to the altar proves that we saw the problem in ourselves, and we are willing face it with God.
I am much annoyed by someone who always writes his blog with this mindset as if the whole world have offended him and as if only he knows what is the best. I mean, can't you deal with life and people with a bit more of understanding and compassion? Can't you stand in others' perspective to look at life? Well, maybe I really don't understand you enough, but I don't think you have any right to pass any judgement on others.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
不管是说：“是那个狐狸精勾引我老公的！”，或者说：“我的女朋友/老婆已经不能让我再感到兴奋。”又或者“She could not make me feel passionate about us anymore.”
为什么第一个反应不是：“He's such a jerk!” 或者“小姐，你应该立刻甩掉他”？
为何没有埋怨男友擅变的感情？或者，为什么没有怪自己in the first place没有好好的管制他？
Oh, do I hear your man's ego ranting again?
Ha! So sorry, I don't like what I'm hearing, NEXT!!!
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
可能，I'm falling in love with my watch just like how Elinor fell in love with her oak tree, 或许，有时候我们想找的qualities在人类里找不到，可能在一些东西上才找得到吧。
难怪，有时候一些人会放弃在同类群中寻找，应该是因为要找的话应该很不容易，因为，nobody could ever meet up to their expectations 所以，他们宁愿在别的东西里或在异类中找他们所希望的qualities吧。
我想，我应该是找到了，而我希望的qualities are in my watch.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
I love it today, I feel so happy with this Primary Four class. =) Gonna buy them some presents as prizes, 'cos we had a contest today. Whee!~
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Gurl, get a grip on yourself.
Friday, November 30, 2007
I'm uber exhausted right now, my eyelids are practically drooping, can't really see the laptop monitor. That's how sleepy I am. Wrong. It's not just sleepy, but also drowsy and my whole body aching. These are what I get from a day's work. Especially when I have a class of Primary 2 students in the morning and a class of Primary 6 students in the evening, followed by 3 hours of dancing and singing for the musical rehearsals.
However, somehow or rather, I am kinda satisfied and fufilled. I guess I made full use of my day and I did things I like. Dancing, singing and acting were three things I love, so musical rehearsals are not much of a drag for me. Ha! I thought teaching will be a tough road for me but I guess I'm starting to like it after all. I mean, the kids are cute and it is fun to see the different kids from different background, how they are brought up and how they behave.
I am exhausted but super fufilled. I think the next thing on my list will be french lessons at Alliance Francaise. Cool!
I needa sleep soon, the laptop screen is becoming smaller......
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Do you know I fell so deeply in love with this Anna Sui Dolly Girl Ooh La Love perfume?
Anna Sui Dolly Girl Ooh La Love is a beautiful sparkling creation that has the feminine essence of this wonderful mixture of a little fruit, spice, green leaves, soft blossoms and amber! I went out shopping with my boyfriends, I mean, guy friends, and they ALL love this fragrance. So, gurls, grab this quick! I'm sure your boys will love it on you! Bet they won't stop sniffin' you! Ha!
Update later! I'm going for lunch now!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Met up with Marianne dearie on Tuesday night.
S'been sucha long time gurl.
We had loads of food, heart to heart chats, more food and more chats.
We simply love to hop from one place to another for food and ambience.
Remeniscence, comparison and planning.
All in our chats chats chats.
Then, yesterday was a total fun baking session for me lah, we did my debut at Jo's house.
My first ever serious baking session.
It's serious but fun at the same time.
My bread and butter pudding turned out super delicious can......
Love it manz.
A pity I don't have an oven at home, if not I'll bake it for you people!
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
That maketh me doth the tillage of heart
What soul is this wraps itself in mystery
That maketh me pitched in full guard
And pierces with the sword of sensitivity
Yet fills me hearty with the sea of quietness
With contant callings of percieving
O, and I listen with much loveliness
The world speaketh worriment unto me soul
However dreamily mine eyes speak
Twas this stillness in me soul that reach in cold
No wool of any lamb could do
Giveth warmth to this soul on this world move
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
It was Chinese Grammer.
As all of you know from my previous posts, I don't really fancy Chinese Grammer.
So, well, I didn't really stressed myself over my Chinese Grammer.
I mean, I just read up on what I thought was important and I told myself to just do my best.
So, I told God: Jesus You know ah, I really don't like Chinese Grammer. But I seriously don't want to fail that module lah. 'Cos I don't want to say Sayonara and pay 80 grand for failing. So God, You know only You can help me now, I don't know who else to turn to.
Well, yesterday wasn't too much of a battle. 'Cos thankfully, the paper wasn't that difficult as I imagine. So, Hallelujah! Love You Jesus! *muackz*
Tomorrow is another major paper on Etymology.
Now still in the process of revising.
Just do my best, God help me!
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
I just finished my last assignment.
You know I tried to sleep just now, but the assignment was weighing heavily in my mind that I couldn't go to lalaland.
So I sit up straight and start doing my assignment.
Once I start, I can't stop!
And now, finally I finished my assignment, I'm too excited to sleep.
Tomorrow I still got to go print my Chinese Grammer notes.
Got to study for my major examinations, due on 12 and 14 nov.
And more sighs.
Monday, November 05, 2007
One more assignment to finish and two more major examinations to go through.
Life's not easy, but God is good to me.
Yesterday's speaker in church was Rev. Glenda Watson.
She talked about letting go and restoration.
I was deeply touched by her message.
Sort of what I needed and what I've been through.
Letting go and the restoration of the soul is something everyone need to do, I guess.
Can't wait for this friday, 'cos it's my turn to do WordEd.
I've got loads to share.
My friends out there: Marianne gurlie, Lou, Zac, Jo and the whole JD gang and many others,
I'm sorry if I can't meet you guys yeah.
'Cos these two weeks will be the busiest for me, after 16 nov, I'll try to meet up yeah.
Also, Nic, I miss you so much. Do take care of yourself in China.
Love you guys so much.
May the wind bring you my love.
Friday, November 02, 2007
These three beefy UK guys sat on a trishaw, the trishaw man was an elderly.
He had a difficult time riding a trishaw with three guys on it, yet the UK guys made fun of him!!!
I was feeling so damn indignant for the old man.
Tears of fury nearly spilled out of my eyes, this surge of fire just shoot straight up to my face.
Felt like clenching my fist and rain punches on the UK guys.
Best thing, get sumo wrestlers to tau-pok them.
To the three UK guys who bullied the old trishaw man:
you guys should be ashamed of yourselves!
Brought shame to your countries and families.
God will punished you guys. Hmph!
I think they should be forced to ride a day's trishaw and give the money that they've earned to the old man.
And all of us, should go tekan them.
Plus, they should make a public apology to the old man, IN CHINESE!!!
And in english, of course.
If we can, we should pelt them with rotten eggs and hang a humongous tag on their neck saying:
We're sorry for bullying the old and weak.
Roar!!! So freaking angry lah!
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Last week was a terribly busy week for me.
Many assignments to finish, working till late nights and all......
Well, though my dark eye circles did not disappear in these three days of rest,
but I definitely felt much better after this long break.
It's time I buck up and do something about my remaining assignments.
And, not to mention exams too.
Hmmm......after exams I'm going to take up Bollywood dancing lessons.
And I'm going to buy Punjabi clothes and get someone to do some henna designs on me.
I'm so sure I'm an Indian disguise as a Chinese you know.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
'Cos I'm having painful tonsils, coughing like I contracted tubercolosis and wheezing away as if there's no tomorrow.
And I can't even speak now!
I've turned into a dumb girl.
Can you imagine a chatty girl who likes to laugh keeping silent and still?!
This is ridiculous!
My bones and muscles ache too......
I hate these......
Someone help me!
All the doctor say was "Amanda, you've got to drink more water and rest more."
Can't they understand I cannot afford to rest at this point of time where I have 2 more teaching proposals to finish?!
I almost dug my brains out to think of interesting activities for my teaching proposals okay!
Make me so agitated leh!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Thursday, October 18, 2007
This time it was at The Picturehouse.
There were less than ten people in The Picturehouse, and most of them were the whites.
Yet, I felt strangely warm and comfortable in there.
I reckon it's the khaki-coloured seats and soft yellow lightings that made the whole cinema so homely yet elegant.
Oh, and you know something? Before the movie starts, they played jazz and it was really soothing to the soul.
The movie I caught was a french film: "Molière".
Jean-Baptiste Poquelin also known as Molière, I've learnt about him when I took up Acting and Directing. Well, it was his name I heard of but not really his story.
Today, it seems that I added depth to my knowledge of Molière.
The french film showed the life of the famous french comedian cum dramatist, the obstacles he deal with, the love he gave and the sacrifice he made.
At the same time, I saw the passion he had for theatre and the woman he loved so dearly.
It's so hard to put down in words everything I watched in The Picturehouse, but I have to say that the life of Molière is one that I would like to experience.
The ups and downs of life and the emotions that we go through are the things that make life valuable.
I believe behind every comedy, comes with a tragedy or something that touch the human hearts so deeply that one will be able to remember it for life.
There was a scene where Molière's lover was dying, at her deathbed she requested Molière to make her laugh.
Molière's reply was, " How do you expect me to make laughter out of a situation that expects me to weep?"
And do you know what his lover said?
"If that's the case, invent it."
I was so touched by the whole film that tears just rolled down my cheeks without me knowing.
And the main lead, Romain Duris, is so HANDSOME!!!
I strongly recommend this movie to everyone, it's totally lovely.
Acting is the profession of sensitivity, not appearance.
Monday, October 15, 2007
Wish me luck manz.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Monday, October 08, 2007
With my earplugs of my mp3 stuck in my ears, I was listening to a pretty upbeat song. So actually it should be quite weird to weep with such a song.
However, it was apparently what I did.
I received a message on my mobile.
It was from my brother who was in camp.
He told me that the whole platoon was punished because of some sabo king.
Even though he had a hard time in there, he didn't fail to ask me to take good care of myself and not tire myself out.
It was then I felt a strong surge of emotions in me, and puddles just formed in my eyes.
In a split second, my eyes just could not contain my tears and they just ooze out like the rain drops outside the train.
Immediately, I lowered my head and squeezed my eyes tight to avoid the other passengers' shocked looks, and that was when I saw blotchy spots on my bosom and my v-neck tee.
It was then that I realised I felt more secure and alive with my brother around, whether outside or in the house.
He understands me, stands up for me and protects me, he's my best friend.
I wiped away my tears soon enough but the emotions in me sure lingered for quite awhile.
I will be alright after a good cry.
I have Jesus with me.
Art, remember, you have Jesus with you too.
Father God, You're my Redeemer and Friend. And You're forever with me, pour down Your comfort upon me, Lord. I need You.
Saturday, October 06, 2007
I adore her and the stuff she wrote.
She is one woman with attitude and character.
She signed on my book with a very creative signature.
I strongly encourage all to read her book, 《留下你的死人头》。
The title may sound a little morbid, but it's just her, you know.
Unique and outstanding from the rest.
The host:黄文鸿 and the author of 《留下你的死人头》:李邪。
I met up with my Art, Lou and Zac in the evening, at the Cathay.
There's a candy floss machine at the entrance of Cathay, I went up and took a look.
I love it when the fluffy floss go round and round the machine, I could feel the rhythm by just staring at it.
Then, this beefy guy with curly hair handed me a stick of candy floss.
Immediately, like a little girl, I gave a little squeal of delight and thank him for it.
I stood beside him and let the candy floss vanished on my tongue.
Soon, I realised he looks good because he has a very kind face, I mean, I could see kindness in his eyes as he hand out sticks of candy floss to people around.
A smile lingered on my face, I think this is what it means when people say that a person will look good when he/she has a heart of gold.
Guess I'll go brew some chamomile tea, well, as all of us should know by now, I'm in a battle with insomnia.
Friday, October 05, 2007
Like, finally I ended my chinese grammer test.
Well, it wasn't too difficult lah.
Though I was kinda nervous while doing the test, but I found out that most of my answers were correct.
Checked my notes immediately after I hand in the papers, you know.
Great, it's time for me to rest now.
I'm going to oikos tonight.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I pray that I don't fail my test tomorrow.
And I hope for good results, in fact.
Who doesn't aim for high marks?
I do, in fact I desire for the best and I'm not ashamed of this desire.
Sometimes, I get a lil' ambitious, but it's never a bad thing.
At least I don't think so.
In fact, I'm proud of being so.
Hah, that's just me lah.
Alright, now back to mugging.
Potato-Arse, I hate you for this.
You better pay back by giving me better marks.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
I have a test tomorrow and I'm supposed to be in bed now, but just not able to sleep.
Maybe I could do with a Long Island right now, with some loud music.
I'm still pondering whether I should move into hostel next year.
You know, I can really save the trouble, time and energy of traveling to and fro.
And independent living suits me fine.
Hostel is an attractive choice for me.
Gawd, I needa catch some sleep.
My head hurts.
Long Island is definite for me.
Maybe......this coming Wednesday?
Friday, September 21, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Nic is in Zhejiang, China.
I miss them boys.
I hope Nic is still going on safe and strong in China.
I pray that Art and Zac are doing well in Tekong, I really hope they are strong both physically and emotionally, to go through National Service.
I truly miss my brother.
Miss the times we observe people and chat.
Miss the times we eat good food and drink and make merry.
Miss the times we talk and share secrets and lend support to each other.
I feel like crying, every time I got happy news or got myself into trouble, the first one I turn to is my brother.
Now, I really want Artie!!!
Now, then I realised I really rely too much on my brother.
I want my brother.
I just pray everything will be going fine for him in there.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Nope, absolutely no moody-me today.
Just a little exhausted from the assignments as well as the music video shoot I took on Saturday and Sunday.
And you know, with the bad cough and flu bug attack, I'm totally down on my immune system.
But anyway, I had fun doing the music video.
Well, I played the female role who got peeked at by her neighbour, then slapped by her boyfriend and finally, being proposed by her boyfriend who gave her a hug and a weird ring.
*roll my delicate eyeballs*
Don't think it's easy acting, 'cos it's not.
But that's where I like it, it's challenging and I get the kick out of it.
At first, Tim(the guy who acted as my boyfriend)didn't dare to slap me.
Awww......he's too much of a humble gentleman.
Hahaha. But apparently because he's too gentlemenly, the slap kinda looked fake.
So, I looked into his eyes and said,"Tim! Slap me, just slap me hard and swift!"
He went like, "No......I cannot."
"Just give me a REAL slap!"
And then, action!
PIACK!!! Right smack, hard on my cheeks.
I was like, GRRRREEAT!!! You know, the feeling is as if I've got an Oscar award.
But the problem was, the crew were too shocked for words and Tim, stunned by the slap turned to the camera and stick out his tongue.
So, we took about 4 takes of real slaps before we got the best one.
Everyone was concern whether the slaps were too hard on me, I told them that everything's ok and not to worry.
Tim was sucha good friend, he took a pack of ice for me to de-swell.
But there's another scene that's more difficult to take than the slapping one.
It's the proposal cum hugging scene.
'Cos everyone was laughing their heads off.
I just burst out laughing.
Took me quite a while to settle into the romantic feel, you know.
Maybe Tim's a little more comical than my previous counterparts in other productions, that's why I laughed so much when I'm supposed to be romantic with him.
Albeit the slaps and awkward hugs, I had fun. Whee!~
Friday, September 07, 2007
Thursday, September 06, 2007
He's going to China to study for 4 and a half months, just like me, previously.
Hope he likes the farewell present I got him.
Gonna miss him so much loh.
After his departure, the next will be Zac and Art.
Nope, they won't be going to China.
But they are going into NS.
Everyone's going away soon.
A little too soon.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
I've sent it to Acer for repair.
Hard disk totally destroyed, what's the worse?
I didn't back up my data.
So, yeah. I lost everything.
Today's speaker talked about making our life count for Jesus.
And the finality, finishing and the finale of life.
Of course, he spoke about funeral too.
So, I was thinking when I die one day, what will my funeral be like?
No, I want to have two funerals.
One before I die, the other after I'm dead.
I'll invite my friends and family to my "living" funeral.
And everyone of them has to prepare a testimonial for me.
As I'm lying on my queen-size bed, all of them will crowd around me and put white trumpet lilies on me, then they'll read their testimonials for me.
After that, we'll do praise and worship(singspiration), and my heart will dance along with the music beats.
Then, we'll have FOOD!!! Loads of food!!!
There'll be Prawn Aglio Olio, Baked cheesy macaroni, my brother's famous Bread and Butter pudding, Banana Chocolate Cake, all Peranakan food, and my favorite Braised pork intestines.
When I passed away, my funeral will be celebrated with loud funky music, christian upbeat songs, and everyone must dance and clap and sing with joy.
Hmmm......it would be best if everyone can wear bright colours!
Like red, yellow, orange, lime green, turqoise, etc etc.
And I shall have my photo in a huge poster size, where everybody can see the sunlight in my smile.
Oh, it'll be really nice if there's good food and alcohol. Teehee! =)
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
My mom, me, my brother with May&Choy.
I thought they were haughty and proud.
Apparently I was wrong. They were really friendly and humble.
They said to my mom, " Come Aunty, join us lah."
Plus, they are PRETTY!!! =)
Me with Royston Tan at tampines. He's so friendly and he looks kinda coy when I praise his movie 881. Humble, talented and charming. What more can you ask for? Love him loh.
Teehee~ Whee~ =)
A pity though I didn't take pictures with Mindee Ong and Yeo Yann Yann.
But still, whee!~
Monday, August 13, 2007
New environment, new lecturers, new understanding of life.
But the old problem still lingers.
My puking thingy.
It's really bad, I threw up everything I eat.
I feel nauseous everytime the image of food pops into my head.
Yesterday night I went out with my family for movie.
Watched 881 by Roystan Tan, at Marina Square.
It's totally local, and glittering.
I never knew ge-tai could be so......humane, so touching.
It's about dreams, love and sisterhood.
I give 5 out of 5 popcorns for the plot and
5 out of 5 popcorns for the acting and directing.
We had our share of laughter and tears, you see all the girls with puffy eyes, red noses and tissue paper in one hand when we all exit the cinema, even the guys sobbed.
Cried my eyes out for 881.
Liu Ling Ling is GOOD manz! Whoot~ She really plays the 大姐大 character well, richly local-flavoured.
Mindee Ong and Yeo Yann Yann are good for ge-tai can.
You see them REALLY smiling while singing, you see the laughter in their eyes.
And the sisterhood they show, whootz!~ that's the thing that make girls cry.
Aiyah, say so much also no use.
You MUST go watch!!!
Sure make you laugh and cry with puffy eyes!
Ha! ( tell you something: I'm gonna watch AGAIN!!! =P )
But The Secret by Jay Chou sucks manz.
I expected better results from him.
He's a big disappointment.
2 out of 5 popcorns for him.
Don't ask me, I'm super pissed off with his show which is a waste of my time.
I mean, I don't deny that he is gifted in music and the concept is good but seriously,
I think there's much room for improvement.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
But I'm not lazy at all.
I cleaned the whole house inside out and did the laundry, felt great after perspiring all over.
Beads of perspiration glided down my face and the cuffs of my sleeves stuck onto my underarms, I felt......worked-out. If there's ever such a word.
This morning I opened my eyelids only to see the worried face of my mother hovering over me.
The first question she popped was," Are you drunk?"
I rolled my delicate eyeballs and told her it was Artie who was totally knocked out, not me.
Well, could see that she was pretty upset about what happened but I explained to her it's part of clubbing, I'll see that my brother practise some self-control next time.
Anyway, Artie's still having a hangover from yesterday.
Hope he'll be okay in the evening, now he's taking his nap.
Cannot tahan him leh. He better learn his lesson manz.
Now, I'm going to make myself a cup of tea and listen to my mp3.
Maybe I'll hit the bed too.
Actually, I came home from PLAY around 1.30am.
I was half drunk, not totally knocked out.
After removing my makeup and changing into my BIG tee, I was about to sleep,
let's say.......around 2 in the morning.
Then, I received a call from 'Nic, only to find out he's half sober and my brother's totally knocked out.
Gosh, I asked him to put Artie in a cab and send him back.
I almost fell asleep waiting for them.
2.45am. The cab reached my house. I looked out of the window and saw 'Nic unable to balance himself and my brother on the floor, right beside the cab.
I rushed down and picked my brother up.
Gawd......you have no idea how bad the situation is.
It's so hard to bring my brother back home.
But I managed.
However, brother I'm sorry.
I think you knocked your head when I was trying to drag you back home.
So, do check for bruises here and there.
Finally, I brought him home and clean him up and put him in bed.
So now I'm here, made myself a cup of tea and writing.
To 'Nic: dude, thanks a gazillionz for sending my brother home. You better have a good rest yeah. See you on Sunday for F.O.P!
Yeah, PLAY was fun. I'm lovin' it! =)
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
You people are sho' sweeeeet!!!!
I had a great time yesterday night with gurlie at Siglap.
It was fun chatting and laughing with my sis, it's like having the ol' times back in me.
Heys sis, do send me the pictures we took alright?
Love ya dearest! =)
Thank you people, thank you!
I gotta shed more fats.
-raise my glass-
To shedding of fats.
Friday, July 27, 2007
I'm so fucking depressed that I'm so fat!
I just wish I could be much slimmer.
Oh my fats, I know I used to like to give all of you names.
But now I'm sick of even looking at all of you.
You guys seem to have brought a lot of extended family into my body huh.
What are you guys thinking?
I'm running a charity home for fats?!
I don't, okay? So, stop bringing them in alright!
So pissed off with my stupid fats!
I wished they had been less thick-headed.
Don't they understand? I want them to leave!!!
Grrr!!! -pinches my fats-
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
It was great!
I mean, I love the message spoken by Suhon.
Furthermore, he put it in a manner that's really close to the heart.
I had quite some updates from my oikos members, many updates are news to me.
But I'm glad they actually make the effort to update me.
Also, I had lunch with them at Budget Terminal's Hans.
Yesterday, after filming, I went out with Nic and my brother.
We went to Plaza Singapura for a walk.
When we reached the third storey, we looked down and saw a teenage girl wriggling on the travelator. Immediately, we recognised that was an epileptic fit attack.
We rushed down immediately to help the girl, I was most worried that someone will shove something into her mouth to stop her from biting her tongue.
Well, basically, if a person is having a fit attack and you shove something into her/his mouth, that person will choke.
When I got down, the first thing I did was to ask the people not to crowd around the patient so as to let her breathe. I turned her on her side and put her head down properly on her bag.
An Indian passerby ask me, " Are you her friend?"
I replied, " No, but I'm an epileptic child."
The patient was frothing and jerking, I took a tissue and wiped away the froth.
For a moment, I was gripped with fear.
But then, I told myself: if I'm afraid, how will I be able to help her?
Then, I contacted her parents and told them about the situation and the location.
After I hanged up the mobile, I turned to a security guard and ask for a chair to let the patient rest.
I saw the girl embarrassed by the whole situation, so I told her, " I'm an epileptic child too. And I understand it's very tiring after a fit attack, don't worry, just rest well."
I told the managers firmly that they have to let the girl wait for her parents to pick her up.
I was so happy that I helped someone having the same problem as me.
Happy happy happy! YAY!!! =)
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
My family and friends came to fetch me.
I was very very emotional.
When I looked out of the window of the plane, I saw the island of Singapore.
I don't know why, but I felt a rush of mixed emotions running through me.
It's like, FINALLY I'm back home.
And it's amazing how I survived the four and a half months in a faraway place without my close friends and family.
To my friends: thank you all for the white lilies, very sweet of you guys.
And to my family members: thank you for everything, I love you guys.
THANK YOU SO MUCH everyone!!!
Seriously, right now, there's no place I'd rather be but over here in Singapore.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
As I watch these two videos, I was so touched.
I nearly teared.
Those famillar places in Singapore!
Oh manz, I really miss Singapore so much!
Really, as what the song says: There's no place I'd rather be but home.
So 感动 when I see my beloved Singapore in the videos.
I finally finished my examinations!
Tomorrow I'll be going to Shanghai with my friends, just a one day trip lah.
To do some last minute shopping.
Then, on the 7 july 2007, I'll be leaving for Beijing with the school.
Some educational trip, will last for four days three nights.
On the 10th, I'll be back in the university.
On the 13th, we're going to hold a graduation ceremony. YES! I'm graduating from ZUCC!
On the 15th, I'll be back in Singapore's Changi Airport, it'll be home sweet home.
I guess, on the night before we leave, my roomies and I will stay up late to chat while in bed.
Hmmm......I've been thinking a lot. Thinking about my whole trip in China.
Friendships forged; the process of learning how to take care of myself as well as others; how to survive in adversities; how to live with my friends, with people whom I'm not very close with in the first place; how to get along with friends who are different from me.
I guess these are very wonderful experiences, though sometimes we rebel here and there; though my hair gone through a lot of experiments(cut, dye, straighten, treament, perm etcetra); though we've gone through mood swings and screaming at each other; though we've gone through really down and scary moments; but in the end, we actually survived all these.
Yes, we cried and bawled our eyes out in front of each other, but we also laughed and screamed our heads off in front of each other. We helped each other even though we actually have to go the extra mile, 'cos I guess we know that we need to lean on each other 'cos in this strange land, we've only got each other. So, overall, though I really hate it academically, but I really thank God for the things that I've learnt.
Thank You Great Daddy! =)
And also, thank you my friends. Really, thank you all.
Last but not least, I want to thank my family and gang in Singapore, thank you for the emails.
You guys really have no idea how much those emails mean to me. They really kept me going on.
And to someone whom may not like to be named, no matter which part of the world you are at, you always give me an email whenever you're free. Thank you so much for trusting me and confiding in me. Miss you loads, hope to see you soon. >.<
Monday, July 02, 2007
I mean, I'm losing the writing touch.
I just sit in front of the computer or a blank piece of paper and nothing comes out from me.
It's just purely demoralising.
I flipped through my old works.
English poetry; chinese poems; some songs, those are my pride.
But now, I seemed to suffer from writer's block.
I'm trying really hard to write something, but my mind is in a virginal blank.
What's up with me man?
I've really got no idea.
Life is difficult, you can't go away
Don't hide yourself in the corner
You have my place to stay
Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
You'll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow's sunrise
The spirit can never die
Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear
Make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness
See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
you have got to believe, you are my destiny
We're meant to be your friends
That's what a friend should be
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007
All of you must be wondering how is it right?
Don't have to ask, 'cos I didn't complete the paper.
I had a relapse of epileptic fit when I was halfway through the paper.
All I could remember is I suddenly went unconscious, then when I woke up, I was lying in my lecturer's office.
But when I regain consciousness, my friend told me that during my relapse I was struggling to return to my seat, to complete my exmaination. Hah! I couldn't believe it too, why would I be so silly to struggle to my seat and finish my paper?! Hmmm......but I do remember mumbling something about my examination when I was unconscious.
But anyway, that was what happened lah.
My friend told me that my lecturer was totally shocked and stunned, so much so that he was screaming and roaring when I blackout.
I really want to thank my lecturers(Professor Zhang, Miss Geng Zhi Hong and Miss Wu Jing), hmmm......'cos I think I really gave them a scare yesterday.
Also, I want to thank Xin Yi, Qiuling, KaiBoon, and of course, my clique of friends: pingz, qinx, binx, lingx, meizhen, junn, qing jie.
Last but not least, my 专属天使, thank you for the sweet letter and orange juice, really felt much better.
Thank you everyone for your concern, I'm really fine now.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Hmmm......it was easier than I thought.
So, I'm happy! =)
Rested for half a day, tomorrow will be a day to chiong my classic literature.
Classic Literature exam will be held on 28 June 2007.
I fear for this subject.
'Cos it's definitely ancient for me, all in ancient chinese language.
BUT, of course I'll try my best, like duh!
We've all decided, we'll do our best for our exams.
But then, immediately after exams, we're gonna shop till we drop and go for karaoke sessions!
Just the thought of that spurs me on to chiong for my exams.
Marianne gurlie, love you loadz.
Just keep yourself happy and healthy, just tag me, email me or gimme a call anytime.
-muackz muackz hugz hugz-
Nic dearie, thank you in advance for the lilies.
White, yellow, green. A little of each.
You know me too well, lil' nicky.
Lou dearest, hope to see you soon.
Take good care alright, heard that you've become really skinny.
Zac kor, thank you so muchie for the email.
Really lifted up my mood and made my day.
Artie brother, miss you miss you miss you!
What else can I say but miss you so muchie!
Can't wait to see you soon!
-a gazillionz hugz-
Alright, finished with shoutouts.
~Muackz to everyone!~
Friday, June 22, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Like what I told my bestest sister Marianne gurlie,
we're gonna GAMBATTE!!!
Try my best and give my all during my examinations.
And not forgetting, of course, to keep myself in a happy and healthy mode.
In this way, I won't be letting those who love me down.
PEOPLE! I'm alright!!! So, do not worry about me!
I love you guys and of course, I love myself!
I won't be beaten down that easily, 我是不死之身嘛！哈哈！
Yes, I admit, lately I'm bogged down by examinations stress.
BUT, I'm gonna fight it with my sunny-optimistic mindset!
*cheers* to [war against stress]!!! Hahaha!!!
Hip Hip Hoorray!!!
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Like, next monday?
I'm feeling extremely stressed up because we do not have ANY study break,
none at all.
Adding on to the tragedy, we have 5 exam papers.
During the days of NP, we have 1 exam paper with 2 weeks of study break.
Just look at the vast difference......sho' sadd right?
Seriously, the lessons here are so boring that I'm forever in coma whenever the lecturers are ranting their logics and all.
Guess I won't do very well this semester but I seriously am hoping I can just pass all my papers.
Never in my life have I been so down about my studies before, you know.
Monday, June 18, 2007
Friday, June 15, 2007
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
I'm just bored.
I've got some assignments to finish, some revisions to do, some dance to practise, some performance to attend, some show to watch.
Many many things to do.
Yet I'm still feeling lonely and bored.
Hah, what the hell am I ranting about?
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
I cut it, yet AGAIN.
And, I permed it.
I look like a rebel now.
Don't know why I did it, maybe it's just another of my impulsive streak working again.
But no regrets.
Never regret anything because as I always say,
you never try, you never know.
I need inspiration.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Thursday, May 31, 2007
I miss my family members and my gang of friends.
45 more days to maison douce à la maison.
I'm lookin' forward to the day I reach Changi airport.
Gatherings with my friends, over coffee and alcohol and food!!!
My family and gang, I LOVE YOU!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
I also believe that if one wants something, the whole universe will conspire to help you acheive it.
I have a dream.
A dream that I'll never give up, even till the end.
Many times, I have the thought of giving up, but no, my heart will keep reminding me of the dream that I always habour in me.
Sometimes, fear of failure stops me from pursuing my destiny.
So, I shall stop fearing because the only thing that stops a dream from being achieved, is the fear of failure.
Therefore, my friends out there, if you know your dream and destiny, follow it and never give up. Even if you die pursuing your destiny, it'll be a glorious death. A death without regrets.
My dreams and destiny, I'll lived it out.
Monday, May 28, 2007
If you are a creative spirit who loves her freedom so much that it's hard to stay in one place for long, you may have a yellow aura.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (NKJV)
Wouldn't it be nice if love were like a cafeteria line?
What if you could look at the person with whom you live and select what you want and pass on what you don't?
What if parents could do this with kids?
"I'll take a plate of good grades and cute smiles, and I'm passing on the teenage identity crisis and tuition bills."
What if kids could do the same with parents?
"Please give me a helping of allowances and free lodging but no rules or curfews, thank you."
And spouse with spouse?
"H'm, how about a bowl of good health and good moods. But job transfers, in-laws, and laundry are not on my diet,"
Wouldn't it be great if love were like a cafeteria line?
It would be easier. It would be neater.
It would be painless and peaceful.
But you know what?
It wouldn’t be love.
Love doesn't accept just a few things.
Love is willing to accept ALL things.
-By Max Lucado-
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Family and Friends. Love you guys.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Many times I would end up sleeping in the morning and waking in just a few hours.
Don't ask me why, because I really have no idea.
Physically I am sleepy but my mind just can't stop tossing around.
I'm down with some stupid flu again, no appetite at all, just want to sleep all day.
Hmmm...talking about sleep.
This morning's lessons are the best sleeping pills ever.
My lecturers are basically just ranting and ranting like a drill,
they either look at the ceiling or look out of the windows when they are teaching.
If it's not because of the lethargy in me, I would have laughed through the whole day.
Totally funny sight, you guys should be here to experience the way the lecturers teach.
I think everybody here misses home and friends, misses Singapore.
Nobody is truly happy here, though yes, we try to be optimistic but home is always the best.
Sometimes, I play around, trying to be silly and all, it's because I just want to lift the moods of my roomies and friends here.
No use being sour and bitter because we'll only suffer, so why not smile and be strong?
You know, I realised I do learn somethings from drama serials.
The character of being strong and optimistic.
I wrote this lyrics, my first attempt, so might not be very good.
But I'm kinda excited that I wrote my first set of lyrics.
Well, the problem here now is I have no music background, so I can't find a suitable melody for it. So, if anyone of you can help me, I'll be so glad.
Don't ask me why I wrote this, it's just inspiration.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Wahahaha!!! (>.<) v
Sunny weather lifts my mood up, I simply love the feeling of being sun-kissed!
I love the brillance of the Sun piercing deep through my skin and into my bones, the sweltering heat burns my skin and set my soul on fire.
The most beautiful part is the crimson of sunset, the flaming rays seems to be burning with passion for life, though it doesn't last for long but you'll see it everyday.
I just simply love the Sun.
Let me ride the chariot with Helios.
Monday, May 07, 2007
you know you have my greatest support in everything yeah. I admire your courage and don't worry, I'll stand by you no matter what. Who ask us to be such close siblings and we share the same blood flowing in us, so of course, we'll raise our shields and block all arrows yeah! Believe in your love and your way of love, it'll bring you through all things.
All of us need support from both our family and friends, so my friends out there who need support, you know you can mail me, tag me, sms me or call me. If I don't have some good advice, at least I have a pair of ears to listen and a BIG care-hug for your comfort. And not to forget, a heart that feels for you. Cheers to great friendships!
Love y'all. *muackz*
Saturday, May 05, 2007
While some couples are made, there're also couples separating.
I have friends who are facing break ups. Sigh.
Some don't eat or even socialise anymore.
Some cut themselves to lessen the pain in their hearts or just to prove their existence.
Love could be sweet but it could hurt too.
I found my love long ago, just that I didn't treasure Him as much as I do now, yet His love for me never end and it'll never ever end.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Above was the situation in my hostel the day before yesterday.
We went crazy revising for our history test which was on the next day.
Everyone was muggin' for the whole night.
Yesterday was D-day, and the test was so damn tough.
History is gettin' on my nerves manz!
Today I'm down with flu, cough and slight fever.
So, I skipped Modern China tutorial and had a rest in the hostel, I just wake up from my sleep.
I ate Panadol(for fever and cold relief), but it doesn't seems to work.
So freakin' angry, how am I going to finish all my assignments and continue muggin' for my upcoming tests if I don't get well?!
These diseases are gettin' on my nerves manz!
Sigh, it's just not my week.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
陈韵蕾，A ZA A ZA，加油！
Friday, April 20, 2007
*BawL!!!* Gahh!!! I'm sooo broke now...*sob sob*
hope my allowance will come in fast...
Money money...where are you???!!!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Think my friends here can't stand my nonsensical pattern already.
But they are enjoying my optimistic dance okay.
Tomorrow I'm going to attend some activities organised by the student council here.
Think it's going to be real fun!!!
Time to socialise again!
Next week gonna have loads of tests and assignments to hand in...
A ZA! A ZA! JiaYou, aMaNdA!!
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Artie, Lou, Zac, Nic and Joce, 我也爱你们！你们是我的好多普。
Thank you so much, you guys are my bestest friends manz.
Marianne gurlie, I love you too! Miss you loadz babe! You're my bestest sister on the whole universe! Just pop me an email or sms anytime alright. (>.<) v
So happy, I'm so happy!!!
Looking forward to my return, gathering with my friends and family!
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Hmmm...watching dvds together, eating together, reciting poems together, singing while bathing, not having the need to be shy while changing in front of them. *Heehee~
Life in hostel is freedom for me, i love hostel life! ^whoot~
Other than having a relapse yesterday while shopping, I'm okie, everyone.
Don't have to worry too much okie! =P
I'm very very fine.
Most of all, I miss you guys like hell!!!!
Marianne gurlie, I hope everything's going well for you no matter in relationships or work. Miss the "pick-up-handphone-dial-gurlie's-number" action. Miss chatting on the phone with you for hours. I miss you, love.
Jocelyn MaMa, I miss your advice and concern and our bitching around. Wakakaka...Miss you so so muchie.
Louis darling, miss the heart to heart chats with you. Miss the way you could make everything seems so easy and neat when I'm messy. I know many things happened between you and zac, but must hang on okie. Still misses you lots.
Secret Lover 'Nic, I know I know...I will take care of myself, no worries okie. Your secret mistress miss the drinking sessions with you and the long phone chats in the nights. When I return, we'll go for Long Island immediately yeah..! Miss you lots too!
Hey Artie! Don't worry about me okie, just work hard and have fun with our friends, enjoy yourself as much as you can kk.
My dear Wyn, take care of yourself yeah. Miss you loads. Will email you whenever I'm free. =)
Independent living, I love it!
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Well, that's because I'm too busy.
I've got to finish my assignments as soon as possible, read up on the books I bought, watch my favourite shows, read newspapers everyday, socialise with the people here, practise our Indian dance etc.
See, I'm very busy, right..?
Yesterday we have a welcome party for the engineering students from Ngee Ann Poly.
They'll be here for about a week.
I was one of the compere for the party last night.
Our chinese studies students and engineering students, plus the china students all had loads of fun.
And I got to eat our local curry, air-flown all the way from Singapore.
Hahaha...I was totally excited when I swallowed the whole cup of curry chicken down my throat.
I gave a silly grin after that, so satisfied yet homesick at the same time.
Another thing is; we hold our own christian care group over here every sunday.
We have praise and worship, sharing of the Word and sharing of testimonies.
We edify and support one another, and pray for one another.
Feel so good to have a support group of sisters here.
My room gone through some weird happenings in the previous nights.
Pingz and I heard weird noises in the middle of the night.
Wake up and found no one awake.
Hahaha, nahh we're not afraid lahh.
Very curious what's going to happen tonight....
Hmmm...time to watch my show!
Will be back soon!
P.S. To my beloved boyfriend: Love you dear! *Muackz*~
Sunday, March 25, 2007
I miss drinking with my usual gang.
I can still remember the familliar taste of my usual Long Island.
Of course, not forgeting the comfy sofa seats of Backstage Bar.
No one drinks over here.
My classmates, not many drink, some don't even touch alcohol.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
over here; in her country.
I realised both of us are similar, too much that scares me.
The thought of us being so similar makes me shiver.
The only difference is the men in her life are much powerful than mine.
Unless I meet another man who can control the world.
I adore her; her ambitions, her beauty, her patience, her pretence, her boldness, her passion, her cruelty, her coolness when adversity arise and last but not least: her addiction for power.
I don't know why, but I just want to know more about her.
She's different from other women, she's so much stronger.
Even some men could not be on par with her.
She's that majestic.
She's the only female emperor in China, ever.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Chatting with Louis now, I miss everything in Singapore.
Chatting with him make me tear...