Monday, January 28, 2008

I have a friend, she's one year my junior and she asked me some questions, and they made me reflect, on my behavior with the opposite gender.

She asked me, "Do you hold hands, hug or lay your head on a guy's shoulder? Though he's
your good friend?"
If you're one of my close friends, you'll know my answer. It's a YES. So, I told her.
'Cos I do hold hands, lock arms, hug and take a rest on my good-guy-friends' shoulders.
Then she asked(yet again), "Don't you think there should be some limits?"
Ok, so here it is. I should have expected this.
But if you know me well, you'll know my answer is: Well, I am an expressive girl. So, I'm used to this kinda thing. It's my way of expressing friendliness and besties form of expression.
But O well, whatever.

I thought about my way of expression.
Maybe it's not very acceptable to some, but I am like that.
I can't just change because of some people's dislike.
But I reckon I'll have to tone down my form of expression since some of my guy-friends are attached.
Don't want any trouble, you know.
But I am still very much expressive.
Very much ME.

Monday, January 21, 2008

Alright, I'm super tired after two major events during the weekends.

Firstly, my close sister Prissy is married on Saturday!!!
I woke up at 0430 in the morning and went to her house to help her, to take her gowns and jewellery, to help her give red packets to the kids and to serve tea to the elders.
Then, early in the morning at 10, her husband's friends asked me to drink, BEER!!!
Bo pian, must drink lah, cannot be spoilsport.
But those guys thought it's so WOW for a girl to drink beer. Like puh-lease lor, they really don't know me.
After that, in the late afternoon we went to the hotel to rest.
In the night, we're busy, damn busy man. It was as if it's my wedding lor. I helped them with the solemnisation ceremony and being the compere for the wedding. Well, hardly ate anything but I drank loads of red wine. Drank till I was quite tipsy, but good thing Ling, Chester and Kenneth sent me home. Hahaha.

Next, yesterday my dearest 'Nic is back!!! Welcome home, Nic!
Missed you so much.
It feels good to have you back.

Tiring, feel like puking.
Gosh, if only I could puke everything out.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

I love working.
I mean, though now I'm still terribly ill but I simply love my work.
My boss gave me two more classes, which means more moolah, more students, more work.
But I love it.
Eight classes all together for me now, though I should be tired, but I felt totally energetic.

My friends are facing problems, loads of problems, whether relationships, friendships or decision-making.
I don't think I have much of those problems, or maybe I have, but God gave me wisdom and a heart to handle them. And when I put my focus on God's assurance, these problems really become minute.

My dearest Nic, you maybe alone in China, but always remember we're here and be strong. You may not have handled your problems well but no matter what, just ignore the people and focus on us and God.

My darling Lou, your problem ah......small case lah. Just communicate more with you-know-who lor. Sure can worked a solution out one lah.

My dearest sister Dearie, relationship wise, I'm not worried for you. But friendship wise, well, give Long some time, he'll come to his senses and be more understanding. So, don't worry.

Mel, I hope I got my message across to you. This is your life, your future, seek God, ask yourself, the whole universe will conspire to help you if it's God's will. Love the art in yourself, not yourself in art. And most importantly, art is an expression of life.

As for myself, I do have a desire and special plan to serve God. But I do not know whether it's Him who's calling me or not, and whether I'm up to the task or not. So a little confused here, but I'll sort it out with God.
Yeah God, You know it all, right..?
Yes You do.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

I woke up yesterday morning with a scratchy throat and big bad flu.
Immediately I knew I really got to sacrifice my private tuition to catch some extra rest.
So, I called Yang's mom and told her I could only tutor Yang next Monday. I guess she was shocked 'cause my voice was totally different, my vocals turned astray. Bad vocals.
But, yeah, got some rest in the afternoon after a hearty meal of beef bolognese farfarlle. Home-cooked. By me, duh.

Today was well-spent, albeit some arguments with Art.
I think nowadays I get easily agitated, I don't know why but I feel kinda MOK. (MOK means amok.) And I feel guilty 'cause I throw my temper all around, not like it's making anyone feel better. Gosh, I can't stand myself.
However, back to today. Went out on some chillax over a cup of coffee at Starbucks, with my precious Art and Lou. It's always so great to have your close friends around you, just chatting and bitching. But my scratchy throat and flu still persist on attacking me, now their accomplice the cough is starting to get to me too. Gahh. Hate it.

Tomorrow I'm gonna see my students again. Looking forward but hope they don't mind my throat.
I'm so looking towards end of the month. That's when all the moolah rolls in.
You know what I mean.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

I'm so freaking tired nowadays.
Guess I've been teaching too much.
I mean, now I have six classes with me, so it's kinda taking the toll on me.
But somehow, I love my kiddos manz. They are sooooo cute!!!
It's going to be difficult for me to part with them when I have to quit.
When I was alone, stoning in my room, I prayed for the couples(I mean, those who are attached) in my oikos.
I also don't know why, but I felt prompted to pray for them, for their relationships with each other. I'm very sure prayer works, so I'm assured that whatever problems that they are facing now, will be overcomed.
I think I must come up with a prayer list for my oikos.
In my opinion, if one is concerned about another, one will hope for the best for that person. So, We pray not out of duty or because that's what everybody is doing, but we pray out of love for that someone.
So, we shall all pray for one another and encourage each other.

Friday, January 11, 2008

I never knew just a simple meal with old friends could be so fulfilling and lovely.
Yesterday night Wenlong and I went to Dearie's house for a cook-in.
I cooked Linguine Beef Bolognese for Long, Dearie, Bryan and me.
It was so cool, we all loved it.
After dinner we had Chocolate Viennese Biscuits and green grapes with Earl Grey tea.
As we eat, we chatted about life, dreams and memories.
Sigh, so cosy......
I miss my friends so much, gotta meet up with them soon.
And I'm so gonna join Junyuan Alumni lah, oh yeah, and I'm visiting JYSS on Chinese New Year eve.
It's been three years since I last saw them.
Yups, it's about time I show my face.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Oh, you guys should know that MCking passed away right?
That is, if you guys ever read the tabloids.
Alright, let's give him the last round of applause, to MCking.
It is always important that artistes get affirmation from his/her audiences.
But anyway, that's besides the point.
The point is, the media and some people are accusing Zoe Tay for not respecting MCking.
She lavishly celebrated her birthday with her fans and some editorial staff while on the other side, other celebs are sobbing their eyes out for MCking.
Okay, first of all, can't all of you see that it's a gimmick of the media to magnify both news and put them side by side on the papers?
Gosh, like how dumb could all the readers get? And if you are one of those who got tricked by this gimmick, please get yourself a new name and oh, it's spelled this way--M.O.R.O.N.
Like puh-lease! The editorial staff could jolly well not report the birthday celebration, or maybe just a low-profile report on the last page of the papers.
Next, I personally think that it would shut the mouths of the reporters and certain readers had Zoe sent a wreath over to MCking's funeral. 人没到,花圈理应到吧。
Firstly, it's a form of respect as well as concern. On the other hand, people won't have things to say.
But O well, as I always say: if you're in this circle, especially showbiz, people do talk and you gotta decide whether all those are worth it.

I am so into earning moolah nowadays......
I don't know why, but I guess, moolah is important, especially now I'm saving up for my brother's birthday as well as my education. I've started this plan on my further studies, so gotta save up. Oh, I'm drafting out my play. I'm not giving up on writing, never will.

Monday, January 07, 2008

I'm so excited!!!
'Nic is coming home soon!
20th Jan, simply can't wait for his arrival.
And yes kiddo, I'll get Old Chang Kees for you, don't you worry.

19th Jan is another special day.
My good sister Prissy is getting married.
Sigh, seriously, I'm happy for her yet at the same time I can't bear to see her get married. Well, I don't really know how to express this mixed feelings.
But, I'm glad I could do something for her on her wedding day, I'm helping out as one of the 'sisters' as well as the compere of her wedding dinner.
Prissy, your sister here 衷心祝福你,希望你永远幸福!

I'm so freaking in need of moolah, I'm like so freaking money-face now lah.
If only I could take up one more group of private tuition or tuition class......

Sunday, January 06, 2008

You know, sometimes it's just inevitable that people talk about you.
Just like what Blaire says, "If you choose to be in this circle, people will talk. And you gotta decide whether all these, are worth it."
I guess, that's exactly what's happening to my friends and I.
I mean, whether at workplace or school or just a basic social circle, people talk.
And sometimes, not everything is nice.
So, my advice to my good brother Nic, who's now at China dealing with people and examinations, just live up to your role.
If people says you're a bitch, then bitch it back.
Just like some people have the impression of me being a vixen, I've tried explaining and taking on "the-girl-next-door" kinda look. But sometimes, people just don't want to listen or believe. So there's nothing much I could do right? Yups, nothing I could do so might as well just let them continue with that impression of me.
At least that's something huh.
Well, 'Nic, don't worry alright, you still have me and Art and Lou and Zac. We love you.
And I know that you love me too, darling.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Can't help, but I'm itching to blog.
Hmmm......basically I just want to update you guys on what I am currently into;
I'm SO into TV series GossipGirl and this newly formed band named 大嘴巴DaMouth.

cool, GossipGirl is actually a novel, but turn it into TV series, and you'll get real life tabloids shouting at your face. It's like, the bitchiest TV show ever. Trust me, you'll love it.This is 大嘴巴DaMouth. A band in taiwan. I totally love their songs, their rock pop and rap. Wootz! Moove the groove in me, y'all. From left to right: DJ, 爱莎, MC, 怀秋.

I totally love these. Like, totally. Yeah.

Today's my off day!
Guess who I spent it with?
Alright, I owed her this okay. For like, don't know how many years lah.
I thought a day spent with melo-dramatic Melody would be super boring.
Apparently, I am not very right.
Even though my menstrual cramps prevented me from being nice and funny, but it did bring on some bitchiness in me, which totally spiced up the whole outing.
I brought her for a "makeover".
Not those super good and high class one, but enough to turn her into a girl.
REAL girl.
And I'm sure the girl enjoyed our outing today huh..?
It's time for transformation, Mel.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

A new year, definitely a different year for me.
A more fufilling one, I pray.
We only got one life, live it the way we truly want.
Live it like it's the last day we have.
You know you love me.