Thursday, November 25, 2004

back frm work..

just came back from work..got a job..working at OG orchard..as a shoe promoter..perhaps it's because i haven't worked for a long long time since last year, i felt really exhausted after working..things aren't simple outside in the society..in school, it's still simple. even if there's sarcasm,we could take it. but in the society or work place, it's much more complicated. dangerous. scary. ur the prey or the predator? be tough & wise for the position of predator? or r u gonna be the prey? sigh..jus do what i gotta do..serve the customers..couldn't care much, just earning my allowances for the hols anyway.. perhaps this heck care attitude toward the ugly ways of those pple will help a little..sigh..

tomorrow's OIKOS RETREAT..!!!can't wait..will go to oikos tmr immediately after work..grateful that alvin kor is coming to fetch me..hahaz..he's a good brother ok..bet we'll have fun tmr..!yay..!
can't wait! can't wait! can't wait manz..!

dat's all pple..im going to go into a coma soon..*eyelids drooping*

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Finally Over..!

whew..!jus came back from movie-watching..watch [SHUTTER]..it was scary manz..creepy actually...the ghost was full of hatred..screamed my head off when i was watching the movie..& the ending is the most original one of all endings..it's gr8 manz...u guys must go watch..it's A MUST!!!!!! hahaz..my imagination is running wild now..cant stop scaring myself..hahaz..

FINALLY..!! i finish my o levels!!! freedom returns to my embrace!!! hahaz..yay..!now got time 2 do wad i wan..so many thgs i wanna do..!
1) get a job.
2) serve the Lord
3) save money
4) write poems & more poems!!!
5) go oikos, go church & enjoy the fellowship with my brothers & sisters in Christ!!!
6) slim down alot..!no reasons 2 be fat anymore..!
7) ENJOY LIFE!!!!

cool..!now im free like a bird..!cant hide or supressed this joy that's in me..!u know, the Lord has been good to me..He has seen me through this exam period..how true it is when they say the Father will never leave you..He never leave me..He stood by me & love me sooooooo much...His love is up to the brim...overflowing in fact..so i must share this love with others also, right..?but first i wanna tell Him, Father, I LOVE YOU!!!!

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Sunday Is Gr8..!

i realised i kept singing worship songs this whole week..when im studying, when im walking, when im on the bus, when im showering, even when im eating..
just came back from church service, the word released is: Be contented with what you possessed. Godliness with contentment is gr8 gain. how apt it is..to our lives..we never thought it's enough to sustain us yea..y?cos we're never contented with what we have & we are always thinking of ways to earn more & more money..at the expense of our God,our spiritual life,our family.we should be contented with what we have, we muz always rmbr that God provides..He will provide, we're His children, no parents would want to see their children starved right..
the sermon was on persecutions, trials & testing.learnt a gr8 deal about it..in a nut shell: Being a christian, we face alot of persecution, trials, tribulations & testing from the Devil. but we muz always rmbr that we muz trust in the Lord for He will rescue & deliver us from the acts of the Devil.
left 2 more papers..den i'll relax & work..think i've written enough..so c ya!

Thursday, November 18, 2004

yay manz!

woohoo..!jus sat for my accounts paper jus now in the afternoon..i jus do what i can do lor..but dunno whether im on the right track..heez.. anyway, 3 papers left only!!!! accounts mcqs for tmr, science mcqs on monday, bio paper on tuesday..then...that's all! hahaz..

yay..!actually im now in hols mood le..so fast right...hmmm...very happy, on clouds nine...guess that's all..will update u ppl later..!

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Hanging On like Every1 else

ok..had my geog elective paper today..it's tough but i do not fret..why??i think it's because God gave me peace. tomorrow & fri having accounts papers..guess i wont do well in accounts..cos im LOUSY in accounts..abhors it actually..*sticks out tongue*

went out with Ron today..find that he's quite a handsome guy with a cute personality..hmmm..clique with him pretty well..found out that we are kinda similar..& we both love God alot..just as He loved us alot too..hehe..but i muz be really weird..i mean..not normal like other girls..well, nothing i can do right..im like this..hahaz..kk..gtg..a lil tired..

Sunday, November 14, 2004

what happen?? why izzit like dat?? -[hurt & confused]-

today went 2 church early in the morning 4 bible study..a lesson on prayer..now den i know that we have 2 speak out loud our prayer..it's like a declaration..a declaration against the devil..

den went for sunday service, the sermon was good..it touched my heart..really..& the released word says; cover any offence & u'll be covered in love. forgive & forget. it sort of applies 2 my life.

but smthg happened during lunch, i dunno why, pple starts sharing secrets among themselves & when we ask them what izzit..they just say"dunno, dunno" well, felt left out of cuz..then emily asked kevin 2 stop harping on the "alcohol"topic..(in a very rude tone)..so i was kinda unhappy & i felt unjust..

however, i prayed when i reached home. felt better. the peace of God fall upon me & i felt good & not so tensed..

i just hope that God will help us solve this prob..i know the good Lord helps.

Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. Ephesians4:3

Friday, November 12, 2004

Had such a Gr8 time..!

yesterday night went 2 alvin kor's house for makan & oikos..jus that it's a pity that i missed the word ed..sigh..it's emily giving word ed u noe..!...but still we had lotsa fun..
it was gr8 manz...there was lotsa laughter & cheer..i was laughing till my whole body jus rocked back & forth...hahaz...we played games, eat(manz..u shld see the food, they were delicious..!& A LOT...!!!!hahaz..) , then we had worship..manz the worship was powerful manz...but i missed the word ed..humph...!but nvm..will be able 2 go 2 oikos after the o's..so i can't wait for the o's 2 end..hahaz..don worry..5 more papers & o's are gonna end..!!!
hahaz..just wanna thank my oikos members & those new friends i met yesterday..u guys made my day manz..heez.. ",

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Can't wait

will be going to alvin kor's house for a gathering..can't wait..that's all i wanna say..
er..c ya then..!hope the o's end asap..really..

Monday, November 08, 2004

it's been a long time..

it's been like eons since i last blog..hahaz..nowadays busy with my o levels...how i hope the o's end asap...
sigh...this morning when i was semi awake i had such a terrible dream, i dreamt that i was late for literature paper2.. & i was left with 15 mins 2 do my paper..so i just stare at the qns paper & those foolscape papers..den the examiner: mrs danial--look at me, shake her head & collect my paper. i burst out in tears & ran to the toilet..can't stop crying...den when i came back frm the toilet, i sat for my literature paper 1, but guess what i got on my desk..?graph papers instead of foolscape papers..so i called for mrs danial & asked her for foolscape paper..she said loftily,"i don't have" Then i woke up..then i realised i had my literature papers last thursday..hahaz..silly me eh..but it was terrifying ok...
cant wait for o's to end..then i could have all the fun i want b4 i start working...hahaz...
seriously i have to say that God has been good 2 me..He gave me much peace..i mean i do not fret when im doing my papers..so i could think & im not afraid...praise be to the Lord...He's a good God...i love Him soooooo much...
hey Jae, got smthg 2 pass 2 u tmr..i think i'll leave it on your desk k..
yep so that's all..see ya..!

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

LOVE..

we cry 'Glory 2 the King!' Praise be 2 Jesus Christ, the Lord of my life!
i really love Him, & i know He love me 2..just like wad Jae said, i think He is much much more impt 2 me than any1 else..guys, studies, family & friends seem soooo much smaller compared 2 Him..i think He is the 1 im running after, nothing else no1 else but Him..im hated, outcast because im running after Him but i couldn't care! i couldn't care anymore!! i want Him, only Him & all of Him..!

what brings me 2 Him?what brings Him 2 me? Love.
what makes Him go 2 the cross so willingly? Love.
what makes the Father give His son? Love.
what makes me run after Him? Love.
why is it that love make me run after Him? Because He 1st Loved me.

Now abideth faith, hope & love, these three; but the greatest of all is Love.

English paper 1&2

today did my English paper 1 & 2..it was quite alrite..i mean i know i tried my best..so i have nth 2 worry bout..even if the results are really bad, @ least i won't regret my whole life on why didn't i work hard right..
after my papers i just kept laughing..when talking 2 alvin over the phone & chatting with my friends..i just kept laughing..i dunno why...hahaz..i guess i sort of like this o levels..it's so new 2 me..so strange yet so fresh..
but i certainly have 2 give thanks 2 the Lord & praise Him..He's always there with me..n He give me peace in my heart..He gave me joy 2...i dunno why but in some corner of my heart, there's joy..i can feel it & i thank Him 4 that..
tmr i'll be taking 3 papers--math p1, Lit p1&2..a lil nervous bout math, my math was never very good..i just hope i could pass..
yep so that's all 4 today..gotta study..cant wait 4 tmr 2 be over..cos i'll have a 4 days break..hahaz..& cant wait for sunday either..hahaz..miss my oikos members..hahaz..

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Social paper today..! o's started..!

woah..just came back from sch..finished my social studies paper...u know i didn't really prepare much for this paper yet when i write, it just flow out so smoothly....i mean, it maybe vague but it just came..u know..
b4 the exam, i was feeling terrible..i dunno why..but i prayed, i asked God for His peace to set upon me and that i told Him i know that He'll be with me n never leave me..i totally put my trust in Him...n u know what..?i felt better after the prayer..soooooo much better...after the exams i called alvin kor and yung chuan..to tell 'em bout the exam..tmr's English paper 1 & 2...a lil' worried bout my summary...
just wanna tell every1 im ok & the Lord has been xtremely good 2 me..n don worry i'll try my best in the o's and i have faith that the Lord will help me...He's a good God, u know..
yep so gotta go study..

P.S. I LOVE YOU, LORD..!