Sunday, November 29, 2009

Contentment - checked?

I took quite a long hiatus.

Work kept me from blog.
Actually, work kept me from a lot of things.
Now, most of the time when I am on the internet, I'll be checking emails and the school cockpit.

Family - checked. All good. I know sometimes I'll get frustrated and speak as if I am damn irritated, but that's not personal. It's work that's getting on my nerves.
Beeee - checked. Blissfully in love. Deeper in love. What more can I say?
Friends - checked. Well, as we grow older, we know people come and go. But the few that stays, are the gems in my life. The Queens and Bestie, totally love y'all.
Work - Sigh. Checked. The saying of "Life's not fair." is slowly seeping in. I don't really dig that, you know.

Bestie and Girl pigged out on cheesecakes on thursday night. Queens and Princess walked on sunshine on a friday morning. Beeee and Baby ever in love.
I really should be contented.
Erm......for now.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Yesterday I went for a course speaking on basic counselling skills.
It was really interesting (and the instructor likes me, heehee) I picked up a lot of skills that I could even apply in my own life.
Then, during lunch break I spoke to the instructor. She was so understanding about the situation that I told her and she was really positive in her encouragement to me. So genuine and sincere.
Well, obviously after talking to her I felt so much better and enlightened.
I think it really helped me and Beeee.
I may still fear at times but I felt that I was much stronger than before.
And I know I can go through this with Beeee.
I love you, James Tay.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Friday, July 17, 2009

Geography Of The Both Genders

Beeee's dad sent this to him, and Beeee forwarded it to me.
Totally funny! Makes sense too!

Geography of a Woman:
Between 18 and 22, a woman is like Africa, half discovered, half wild, fertile and naturally beautiful.
Between 23 and 30, a woman is like Europe, well developed and open to trade.
Between 31 and 35, a woman is like Spain, very hot, relaxed and convinced of her own beauty.
Between 36 and 40, a woman is like Greece, gently aging but still a warm and desirable place to visit.
Between 41 and 50, a woman is like Great Britain, with a glorious and all-conquering past.
Between 51 and 60, a woman is like Israel; has been through war and doesn't make the same mistakes twice,takes care of business.
Between 61 and 70, a woman is like Canada, self-preserving but open to meeting new people
.After 70, she becomes Tibet, wildly beautiful, with a mysterious past and the wisdom of the ages...only those with an adventurous spirit and a thirst for spiritual knowledge visit there.
Geography of a Man:
Between 1 and 70, a man is like Iran, ruled by nuts.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Out Of The Norm

This morning I went to work in a colbalt blue dress.
I think it ended just above my knees.
Ok, maybe a teeny-weeny bit shorter.
Everyone starts to give me that look.
I mean, whatever man!

Sometimes, I just don't understand.
We always say that educators have to build that rapport with your learners, yet when I've really built that rapport with my learners, people have much to say.
In chinese, we say: 人言可畏. Tongues do wag and we have to beware.

At times, I just can't comprehend why are people so confined to the norm. I don't mean that there's anything wrong about confining to the norm but why can't they, at the same time, accept things out of the norm?
Are the hearts and minds of Man really that narrow?

Wednesday, July 15, 2009


My goodness! I can literally see cobwebs spinning around here...
I think I've taken too long a haitus.
It's time to shake this place up.

Well, I graduated yesterday!
My whole family went to attend my graduation ceremony.
If you want to view the photos, go to my facebook profile.
I'm just too lazy to post it here.

Gotta go do my work now, update later!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Crisis. No?

I hardly set a question as my post title, but today I did.
The reason being I am in a stage where I am feeling a little lost and I am searching for answers.
Honeymoon period is over, here comes the crisis.
I know I may be a very over-curious and think-too-much girl.
But, that is me.
I think a lot, and when I am serious about something, I think even more.
I guess I've come to a state where I don't know what is what.
Sometimes I don't know whether you mean what you say, sometimes I cannot really figure you out.
You can read me so easily yet I cannot do the same to you, I felt weak and I start to fear.
I told myself to be logical, to be calm and not overly sensitive, yet at times, emotions took hold of me.
I am still searching and I am really trying, to be the girlfriend, the right one.
Pardon me if sometimes what I say caused pressure, 'cause that's not the way I want it to be.
Did I do the wrong thing by publishing this post?
I hope not.

Sunday, May 31, 2009


My love is starting work tomorrow.
Honey, jiayou kays! Baby loves you so much.
Everybody's right about something: I'm so in lurrrvvee......
*giggles and kisses* muacks, honey dear!

Thursday, May 28, 2009


Blah blah blah blah blah!!!!
Just let me rant alright.
I'll be okay in awhile.

Monday, May 04, 2009

Examinations' Stress

This week is my last week of practicum.
Everybody was telling me to enjoy my last week, since it's the final lap of the race.
But I am just purely running this final lap of practicum.
It's pretty tiring especially when I have to worry whether there's enough time for me to mark and go through all corrections, whether I can finish teaching all syllabus that are supposed to be covered, whether their files are in perfect condition.
On top of that, I have to make sure they are prepared for their oral exams tomorrow.
I think all teachers are uber busy at this point of time, when there's examinations and we gotta do all the preparations. To top it off, we have the influenza A exercise going on in schools. Arrgh!!!
I guess I'll miss my kids, like really really really miss them.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Love You Love Me

I am so blissfully in love.
I love my boyfriend for who he is.
More importantly, he loves me for who I am.
Love you, darling!

Weekend Well Spent

Weekend was well spent albeit some tension among best friends.

I am glad that Lou and I cleared the air, but I truly hope that he knows that I am here, as long as he just say the word, I'll just stay to listen to him rant and rave at me. My shoulders are always available for you to lean on, dude, just like how you've always lent me your shoulders and your listening ear.

Weekend was well spent with excellent musicals and lovely company.
After cell meeting on friday, I surprised my honey by going over to his workplace at the bar with my cell group members. Think my honey couldn't handle THAT kinda surprise huh? Hahaha! But honey was sweet enough to attend to us. Thank you darling, muacks! ^.^
I caught If There's Seasons on saturday with Nic, I liked some of the actors, like Joanna Dong and Jeffrey Low, their vocals are superb man. As for George Chan, his acting improved, much better than the previous version of the musical in 2007.
On sunday, honey and I went for Cats at the Esplanade. Whoo!~ Cats is totally, absolutely cool! I love their dance! So detailed, every movement tells a story. Of course, their vocals are solid! Thumbs up!
Before we watch Cats, we went to Bugis with Timothy and we went to find honey's daddy. His daddy is such an interesting person, I could just sit there and listen to him talk, if its not for his only-one-hour lunch break. He is totally funny.

Of course the whole day was fun and lovely cos I have honey with me.
Love you dear! Muacks! >.<

Friday, April 24, 2009


I had my last observation this morning.
My CT and Boss Number 2 came in to observe.
I thought I was fully prepared, seems like I was wrong.
I overlooked a lot of details.
To add on to the situation, Boss Number 2 is a person who looks into details.
I thought I did very well during lesson, however, after the observation, I got news from my CT that Boss Number 2 wasn't too happy with my lesson.
I was not detailed enough, felt so demoralised.
My CT told me all these flaws in my lesson, I felt like a really lousy teacher.
But she ended encouraging me, saying that no one is born a teacher, we all learn through experiences.
I was truly touched.
People always thought that I am strong enough to bear all criticism and that I am full of confidence, no doubt that I am confident but at times when I hold high expectations yet did not hit them, I will crumble within.
The encouragement from my CT was a crutch to the crippled, it helped me recover from the "lousy teacher" thoughts and accept the fact that I do need to learn and figure out a way of teaching that really helps my students.
Like I always say, it's lives we dealing, it's futures we're moulding.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

A New Thing

See my new blogskin?
I totally love it!
My dear brother Art designed for me, so sweet right?
Actually, I sort of demanded it from him lah.
Anyways, I really love it very much.
Art, thanks a gazillionz!

I will be having my 7th observation by my CT tomorrow and my last observation on Friday.
My Number 2 boss will be coming in to observe me too.
So now, I have to hurry to finish my lesson plan for Friday as she wants to view it tomorrow morning.
Till then!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

So Screwed

I just finished my 6th observation by my CT.
Things were so screwed up, all because of my stupid thumb drive that died on me last minute.
The whole flow of the lesson was terrible.
I felt the greatest indignity slapped right in my face, 'cause the night before I prepared so well for the lesson and I was so filled with confidence that I could not wait for lesson to begin this morning.
And then, SMACK!
My thumb drive decided to go against me. Everything I prepared could not work.
How nice.
But whatever! Everything's over, I cannot be bothered by it, I've got to move on to prepare for my lesson observation on thursday.
If I cannot use my thumb drive in school computers, I'll bring my uber heavy laptop to school.
I'll do everything to get my work done, till I am satisfied with it.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Being In Love

Yesterday was a totally lovely day for me.
Honey and I went out for a picnic at Sentosa.
Then, we went for a movie: The Sniper.
Well, most of the movie I was sleeping. Too tired to watch lah.
I guess honey was a little embarrassed when he texted his friend what he meant to text me.
Guess his friends teased him big time.
Anyway, my close mates should all by now know about honey and me.
I am glad all of you are happy for me.
Though I am together with someone now, I still belong to everyone ok.
So don't be upset people!
I am still `Dee*, lEi, Manda baby etc etc etc... okie???
Love you people!!!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Sho' Shweeeeet Lah!!!!!

Look! I found this on my table early in the morning, when I reached school.
I was so excited, wondering who is that nice soul that bought it for me.
I thought it was my angel, hahaha!
Nah, it was Samantha, the colleague that I am going to travel with.
She was sho' shweeeeet lah.
I felt so bad seeing her so busy with lessons and vetting of exam papers, was hoping I could help her with something, yet she was still so thoughtful to buy me something nice.
Samantha, Jiayou kays! ^,^

Monday, April 06, 2009

Sho' Shweeeeet!!!!!!

I received 2 pieces of chocolate and a very sweet note from my angel this morning.
My angel left it on my table when I am away in class.
I took a pic of the note and the chocolate.
See...Sho' shweeet right...?
Heehee, it really brightened up my day!
Thanks a gazillionz, my angel!

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Many have commented that I should count my blessings for the fact that I do have a stable job and income in times like this.
I do not deny the fact that yes, I do have a stable job.
But it will not turn into my career.
Not that I do not like teaching, but how do you expect me to be willing in a system that I do not agree with?
I love my students(yes, including the rebels).
I love teaching and talking to them, listening to their conversations full of antics.
I dislike the system.
I disagree with the rules.
I hate doing detailed lesson plans.
I disagree with the system of 'no sound means good class'.
Why can't we give our students more space? More freedom of speech?
Even though at times when the things that they speak may sound like rubbish to us, teachers, yet in that 'rubbish' we may see their thoughts and character.(if we ever bother to rummage and look into it)
I know I wouldn't stay in this profession for long, but I will do my best as long as I am in it, 'cos it's lives that we're moulding.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Too Tired

Today I had my observations by my CTs...
So tiring, it's like a war, you know.
I just hope things turn out well.
I am too exhausted to think about the results.
I just want to sleep.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Oh my 天!

C'est La Vie

我只想enjoy everything that comes my way,即使它是很棘手、很不堪、会让我苦恼或拖累我的事情。
庆亮曾经说过:“生活 - 生命要活过,才算。”
I agree with him.
I will live life to the fullest.
I will fulfill my dreams one day.
I will make decisions and not regret.

In the musical Rent, Mimi said,"Forget regret."
Seriously, how long is life for you to regret?
Live to the fullest, C'est La Vie!

Monday, March 23, 2009

So exhausted!

I am so damn exhausted.
Somebody save me from lesson plans and all the preparation of lessons.
If anyone ever again tells me that teaching is easy, I'll punch that person's face for sure.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Therapeutic Cherry Cheesecake

Okay people, if you have been following me on Twitter then you will know that I made a cherry cheesecake yesterday.
Yes, after work, my dear.
It was very therapeutic, you know.
Well, enough said. Here are some pictures of my famous cherry cheesecake.
Not that famous yet, but once you eat it, it will be.
The cheesecake before I add on the cherry topping......
Me spreading the cherry conserve......
The final product. I could not help but took one small slice. Hee......

Monday, March 09, 2009

Reappraisal and Research

Probably because my theatre lecturer was Ah Liang, and he is quite a strong believer of Konstantin Stanislavski; that I, too, fell in love with the concepts of Stanislavski.

"The revolution thundered in and made its demands on us. There began a period of new explorations, of reappraisal of the old and the search for new ways. ...This link with the past and the eagerness to move to an unknown future, the searching quests of the new theatre - all this helped to keep us from succumbing to the dangerous 'charms' of formalism ... We did not succumb; instead we began our quest for new ways, cautiously but doggedly." - Stanislavski

I like it when I saw this chunk of words.
It was a reminder to me that we need to constantly review the past and come up with something new, having the courage to charge forward into the unknown, knowing that even if it is going to be a great challenge to step out of our comfort zone.
I am now in a new cell group (my leader is Tham Tham!!!) because our original group multiplied (praise be to God!), we had to split up in order to multiply more.
When I got the firsthand news that we are going to split, I knew immediately in my heart, I will move to the new group. Probably because I was heavily influenced by Stanislavski? Hahaha.
Whatever it is, we do need the courage, the faith and the perseverance.

"Let the wisdom of the old guide the buoyancy and vitality of the youth; let the buoyancy and vitality of the youth sustain the wisdom of the old." - Stanislavski

In here it says the wisdom of the old, I personally interprete it as the wisdom from the lessons of the past, and the buoyancy and vitality of the youth, I see it as the life and the vibrance of the present.

Thursday, March 05, 2009




Sunday, March 01, 2009

Banned From Local Supermarts?!

My friend sent me this.
Damn funny.
Check it out.

This is why women should not take men shopping against their will.
After I retired, my wife insisted that I accompany her on her trips to
Unfortunately, like most men, I found shopping boring and preferred to get in and get out. Equally unfortunately, my wife is like most women - she loved to browse.
Yesterday my dear wife received the following letter from the local Wal-Mart:

Dear Mrs. Samsel,
Over the past six months, your husband has been causing quite a commotion in our store.
We cannot tolerate this behavior and have been forced to ban both of you from the store.
Our complaints against Mr. Samsel are listed below and are documented by our video surveillance cameras.

1. June 15: Took 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts when they weren't looking.
2 . July 2: Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute intervals.
3. July 7: Made a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the women's restroom.
4. July 19: Walked up to an employee and told her in an official voice, 'Code 3 in Housewares. Get on it right away.'
5. August 4: Went to the Service Desk and tried to put a bag of M&M's on layaway.
6. August 14: Moved a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.
7. August 15: Set up a tent in the camping department and told other shoppers he'd invite them in if they would bring pillows and blankets from the bedding department.
8. August 23: When a clerk asked if they could help him he began crying and screamed, 'Why can't you people just leave me alone?'
9. September 4: Looked right into the security camera and used it as a mirror while he picked his nose.
10. September 10: While handling guns in the hunting department, he asked the clerk where the antidepressants were.
11. October 3: Darted around the store suspiciously while loudly humming the 'Mission Impossible' theme.
12. October 6: In the auto department, he practiced his 'Madonna look' by using different sizes of funnels.
13. October 18: Hid in a clothing rack and when people browsed through, yelled 'PICK ME! PICK ME!'
14. October 21: When an announcement came over the loud speaker, he assumed a fetal position and screamed 'OH NO! IT'S THOSE VOICES AGAIN!' And last, but not least .
15. October 23: Went into a fitting room, shut the door, waited awhile, then yelled very loudly, 'Hey! There's no toilet paper in here!'

I wished I can do some of the stuff as mentioned above.
How fun......
Can you imagine?

Friday, February 27, 2009

Finally Friday

Today is Friday, the last of my first working week.
I am so tired.
Everyday, I forced myself to press on.
You know, yesterday before I fell asleep, my mind was filled with this question:
'What should I do for my primary 5 lesson plans?'

I had a nightmare.
It was so bad that I woke up at 04:40am and cried my eyeballs out.
Then, I fell on my bed and went back to sleep.
I guess I am too exhausted and stressed.
But given my character, I cannot rest without finishing my work.
Even if I finally cannot take it and collapsed in bed, my mind will still be on my work.
Everyday is work work work for me.
You know, the workload is really heavy.
However, the only thing that drives me to school is my students.
So, if I ever go on medical leave, that means I am really really truly ill.

Okay okay, enough of my ranting.
I gotta go write my primary 5 lesson plans.
Drats, I should have known that life is never a bed of roses.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

We Are Winners

Tomorrow is D-day.
The day that marks the start of practicum.
Many of my babes are kinda depressed over it.
But darlings, remember, we must always keep our heads above the water. (quote from jun)
If we survived, we're winners.
My princesses! What are we? We're WINNERS not LOSERS, yeah?!
Love you babes. Come on girls, give Manda baby a BIG BIG hug!!!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Start Of Something New?

I think everything should be alright for me by now.
Well, I still like the memories but not feeling too sad whenever I think of them.
So, I guess I will be okay soon.
Thanks a million for the understanding and concern of those who cared, love all of you so much.

Teaching practicum is starting on Monday, 23rd of Feburary.
I need to tweak my mindset a little; to be the ever-optimistic, chirpy and humble student-teacher.
My life is going to be filled with lesson plans AGAIN!!!
Also, I totally have to wreck my brains to think of creative and effective ideas for teaching AGAIN!!!
*roll my delicate eyeballs*

Saturday, February 14, 2009

I like this photo.
I always dream of a love like this; just a simple walk along the beach with the holding of hands and we will look into each other's eyes and smile.
Sounds simple?
Yet so difficult to attain, aint it?
Just like the lyrics say: "dream-maker, you're a heart-breaker."
The man who could have made my dream come true, in the end, was the breaker of my heart.
My heart wasn't too shattered, actually.
Just couldn't get over the fact that top prize just brushed past me like that.
Yes, I know there's even better top prizes out there, but till now, he's the top prize that I've met and actually wanted.
O well, just give me time to get over it okay, though I know he will always be remembered.
Oh yes. Today is Valentine's Day.
To all my lovelies: Enjoy your day of love.
And to him (that is if he ever finds my blog),
I wanted to text you a Valentine's Day message but I do not have that courage to send out the text. So, I'll just write here, hoping that one day you'll be able to find out what I wrote.
[TSCQR, I guess I really fell for you already. This, I don't even know until now. But, I will get over you. We're friends. :) Enjoy your Valentine's Day!]
No matter what, I still hold on to my dream of love. ;)

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Patience Hope Pride





Patience and Hope, 今天真是谢谢你们了。You girls may not know it, but you both really made my day. Pride爱死你们了!

Sunday, February 01, 2009

An affair to remember

So many things happened and I have no idea where to start.
Well, some of my friends are going through a rough patch while some of them are stepping out of their comfort zone. Yes, you guessed right. I am talking about relationships or dating, whatever you want to call it.
For me, I have got something new.
It was quite an embarassing encounter yet so beautiful.
For those who knew, you know how he and I got to know each other.
Some of you who were there, you girls know exactly what I was thinking and doing at that time, and of course, what he did.
Well, yesterday he and I went out.
I never dated someone like him. He's so different from the guys I've ever dated.
Yes, he took a while to open up to strangers.
Yet, strangely, we opened up to each other more than what we expect we will.
And I like the good impressions on our first date. I don't know about him, but I do like what I see and how I feel.
I don't know if there is going to be more to this but even if it is for this once, it will still and always be an affair to remember.
At least to me, yes, that will be how it is. was really minute yet incredibly significant......

Friday, January 30, 2009

Till Then


Tuesday, January 20, 2009

What a Freak!

This morning Guai Tai bought breakfast for me because I was late and went to school without food. So Guai Tai, with her very sweet kindness, offered to buy me breakfast.
But alas! The warm start of my day was spoiled by a possessive freak who could not stand Guai Tai being good to me.
Seriously, jealousy is the greatest curse of women.
Well, so story goes on.
Freak could not stand the closeness between Banana and Guai Tai, so she forbids Banana and Guai Tai to be in close physical proximity. So, Freak came up with some lame excuse to split Banana and Guai Tai.
Oh for goodness! Everyone saw the jealousy that shoots out like darts from her eyes as she ordered me to move from Guai Tai.
What did I do?
In order not to spoil my image in front of my lecturer, I swallowed my fury and proceed to another seat.
Hah! That was the last straw that broke my back.
From now on, apart from academic purposes, whenever Freak's around, I'm not.
So, friends around and those who know, please take note of this new condition of mine. And please don't blame me for being bitchy 'cause I'm fucking pissed by her possessiveness of Guai Tai, and her "jealousy cum insecurity cum inferiority" problem.
Oh! And not forgetting to mention, her psychopath mindset of running others down to make herself feel superior really makes me wanna puke.
So yups, WOW! I feel so much better now, finally saying out the truth.
You know, hiding the truth will suffocate me.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

It's a long haircut

Banana accompanied Guai Tai to cut her hair yesterday.
Can you believe it? We sat in the salon for 6 hours.
Oh well, Banana did something useful too.
Like, getting her fringe cut and taking photos of Guai Tai.
Let the photos do the talking.
Guai Tai, before having her haircut. Banana before cutting fringe, Guai Tai having haircut.Guai Tai with her Cleopatra hairstyle and Banana with her messy-sultry hair.
Banana and Guai Tai, total NARCISSISM!!! =P

Hahaha! Yesterday was fun, we should go out more! ;)

Monday, January 05, 2009

First Day

Yups, today is the first day of school for me.
And I had fun dressing up! A little funky-prep style is cute! =)
Ooh......forgot to mentioned that Jurong Point expanded.
It's uber huge now!
So many shops and restaurants......if I am broke, you know the reason.
Hahaha! Of course, what would first day be without some cam-whoring?!
Oh yeah, not to forget, on the first day of year 2009, I baked some chocopots!
Chocopot is a cross between brownie and pudding, tough on the outside but a softie inside.
My family and friends LOVED them, especially with a scoop of smooth and freezing ice-cream.
Hahaha! Here's some pictures of chocopots! ;)

Hmmm......would like to type more but I gotta go sleep now. Tomorrow I have morning class.