Sunday, October 31, 2004

God will make a way..!

just came back from lunch with my church friends...had a gr8 time sharing..n get 2 know my brothers n sisters more n soooooo touched that they kept my in their prayers though im not attending oikos for the moment...gotta wait for o's to finished b4 i return 2 'em..
had an awesome awesome time worshipping God today...we sang n we danced..its so uplifting...n God really spoke to me during the altar call and when we sang 'God Will Make A Way'..the lyrics meant soooo much to me..
God will make a way where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway
In the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But his word will still remain
He will do something new today
yup, no matter how sticky or how tough our situation may be, our Father will provide a way out for us..He'll make a way..!Trust in Him..!

Friday, October 29, 2004


im too tired 2 blog..just know dat i gotta press on till the o's are over..i'll get back my freedom..

Thursday, October 28, 2004


jae, im glad ur feeling better..

a few more days to the o levels..more or less a lil nervous..

not much to blog..just wanna make sure im still sane..yea..

Tuesday, October 26, 2004


I think I have fallen
In love with Him
No other men
Can compare to Him

His love is so great
Carried me in His hands
His life He willing gave
And said, "It's all in the plan"

He gave,all of Him He gave
So that I may be born again
Really can't remember which date
But now, eternity I attain

He is the dew of the morn
That renewed my heart
Though life is with much thorns
With Him, the journey's not so hard

Now I am free
Free like a dove
I want to fly up many trees
And declare His love

For you, my brother.

how could i see you in a pit
yet not pull you up from it
why don't you just reach out your hand
so that i may help you to stand

its terrible for me
why don't you let me set you free?
free of these dirt and mud
you could have another start

look up, my brother
don't go on wither
you are the guide to others
don't you remember?

you asked me to be happy
now would you practise what you preached?
i hope you do
cos i'll be happy too.

N.B.~Jae, for you.~

Monday, October 25, 2004

felt better..

yesterday i went for sunday was refreshing...and i had a gr8 time worshipping and praising God..
after the service we went to parkway parade's pastamania for lunch..talked quite alot..
felt stressed that o levels are coming..alot of pressure..known pressure and unknown ones too..
talked to my oikos members and i prayed..felt better..but went home i still cried my eyes out when i quarrelled with my bro over my studies stuff...
until i talked to jae..i seriously felt like a load off my mind..well jae, thanks a million ok..had a gr8 time talking 2 u..u might not want to burden me with ur probs but i just want u to know that if u really need sm1 to talk or smthg, im here alrite..cos ur my bro cum fren..and also know that the good Lord helps..He will never leave us alone..never..

Saturday, October 23, 2004

miss 'em!

i've been doing school papers these few not sure whether i know what im doing..seriously..
1 more week to the o levels..really stressed and nervous..

right after my o levels, the person i would like to see straight away is him..i dunno why, just want to see him right after 3 weeks of stress...hahaz..

mr.jae Ong is ill..very much ill i jae, please take care of yourself will ya..? and drink more h2o and rest more ok..will be praying for your recovery...the good Lord heals..don't worry..

seriously, i miss going to oikos..and i miss my oikos members terribly...really hope to see them tomorrow..can't wait..!

Thursday, October 21, 2004

i hate this..!

im afraid, frustrated, this pent up anger inside..i dunno why..i feel so stressed's like everybody seems to be pinning high hopes on parents, brother, teachers...what if i don't do well..?wouldn't it be such a big let-down to them..?but seriously im trying very hard...very...
i know the good Lord will deliver me..but the feeling of uncertainty and fear still grips me...i trust the Lord to help me..but im not confident in myself..have i tried my best..?have i fully prepare for the o's..?i dunno...
seriously, i don't want to let everybody down..i don't wanna let Him down too...sigh...

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

11 more days..

well on monday i did my o levels science was ok..but chem was tough manz..seriously im not so confident..not as confident as when im at prelim prac..
yesterday i was at home all the time..except in the night..i went for night consultation at school..i was doing my math and science the whole day...some how im afraid cos i feel that i don really have enough preparation...
11 more days to the o levels...sigh...
ok guess that's all manz..going to study now..buh-bye..!

Sunday, October 17, 2004

uplifting day!

today went for church was gr8..!we worshipped and sang praises unto our Father...we danced too..!it was uplifting..!it was spirit-lifting..n we all love it..!
O Father, how we love You..!
after service we went for lunch..had a very good time edifying each other..all my brothers and sisters in Christ really taught me alot and thanks sooooo much for the encouragement..

i can sense his care..his care for me...he's always asking me am i ok...he seems to know that im having probs..he always know that im moody or something is troubling me..i like him being so sensitive to me...
but whatever..he's just a big brother...yea..

tomorrow is science prac..sort of prepared already...just commit everything to God...i trust that He'll help me when i try my best and when i have faith in Him...
the o levels is 2 weeks away...prepared already..but not fully prepared..i mean who would think they are fully prepared muz continue to work hard and trust in God to guide me and take care of me...i really love You, Lord.

guess dats buh-bye..!

Friday, October 15, 2004

thanks mr Ong..!

ok..yesterday i skipped school...i mean it's after our graduation day, can't we like take a rest from studies..?jus one day...and my teacher's mad at us...ok but it's not only me who's 27 out of 38...fine..i know she's pissed..!oh manz..feeling exhausted today...very...we took lotsa served as day i'll look back at our photos and say,"hEy!that's me!" or "hEy!that's how mr.Ong look 10yrs ago!" hahaz..good good...

by the way, mr Ong, thanks a whole bunch for the small talk today...i guess what u said knocked some sense into me...i mean i shld spare a thought for him and's not only us but it also concerns everyone...rite..?yep i guess i get what u mean...and i think what u said is quite wise...ok,don ur head swell..! hahaz..
seriously,it was wise and thanks ar...hee..

yep so i think that's all...see ya..!buh-bye...

Wednesday, October 13, 2004


Wow..!! u know..we had our graduation ceremony today..i really felt like crying when i hugged mrs danial and receiving my cert...but im the master of ceremony(MC) i told myself i gotta be professional..i cant drop a tear...after the ceremony i took photo with many will served as memories...
thank you Father for giving me this last chance to host an event in JYSS...
and thank You also for guiding me to do my best...thank you Lord, thank you Jesus..
i guess i'll miss my teachers..all of em..even some who did not really taught me for long...
JYSS rawks...i really had a good time in Jyss...also i gotta thank some teachers for the good testimonials all of you gave...thanks a million..!will not forget u all...sob sob...

Monday, October 11, 2004


today skip sch..cos very tired ma...
yesterday had a good time, going to church service...yung chuan is the worship leader and emily is one of the female vocalist...emily..! U did a gr8 job manz..! yung chuan, ur as good as ever..
yesterday we went for lunch..was gr8 too...enjoyed fellowshipping wif my frens...
guess i'll miss my oikos members very very very extremely much when i cant join them for oikos(until my o levels are over)...

dint have a good rest yesterday..u noe why..?cos he's still in my mind..0wiz in my him, miss him, think bout him day n to have a good rest..?sigh...silly huh...yea i think so too..but i don have a solution..u have..?

whatever..!i hope i could just forget him like how i forget to eat my medicine...hahaz..

Thursday, October 07, 2004

stressed out!!

i feel so stressed really trying my best to study and to work hard...but why is it that everyone seems to think that im not giving my best..?everybody has high expectations on me...especially my parents and my brother...though my parents say they dont really give a heck bout results..but i know in their hearts they do care, and they care alot bout it...i know they do expect really trying hard...
the o levels are coming...24 more days...a lil nervous...
hey im the emcee for my graduation along with Hidahyani...don know whether spelled correctly not...heez..but the thing is mr silva havenot given us the script slow ar...hahaz...
graduation day~reminds me of leaving time flies...the scenes of my sec1 yrs are still fresh in my yesterday was sec1..hahaz..4yrs..4 fruitful yrs have passed...teachers,principal,friends,seniors,juniors and all the events i've hosted...fruitful indeed..
guess i gtg..go take a nap..then wake up and study some more..heez..buh-bye..!

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

silly is the word... at school's comp boring decided to blog smth...
yesterday went for night consultation in school...was gr8..i mean i got the help i want and i could stay away from my bed, comp and tv...hahaz..temptations...
sigh...he never msg me one lehz...but dunno why i still like him so much...silly right..?
but i can't help it...its just like this...i like the way he talk to me face to face...just like his gentle sweet and simple...and his nervous laugh...hahaz..silly me...
cant help it...who cares..?i like him..hahaz...

busy in school...revision takes up alot of my time...
but its good...keep my mind occupied...hahaz.....
alvin kor, one word of advice--faithful 2 Da sao.. k..?
heez..guess i gotta go...if not teacher scold scold.hahaz.. buh-bye..!

Monday, October 04, 2004

So Strong...

yesterday went to church service in the morning...sat with my Oikos members...
yesterday's service was totally gr8..its sort of like a new experience...when Pastor Tay prayed for the baptism of the Holy Spirit and ask for the revival of the Holy Spirit in our hearts, the presence of the Holy Spirit was extremely strong manz...we were all speaking in tongues and i could feel my hands shaking...the Spirit sort of like hit me so was a good feeling..
then we went for lunch..talked alot...alvin kor, don worry ok alrite...heez..
truly can't wait for fri and sun...i know every week i say these..but it's true ok..hee..
guess that's all..buh-bye..!

Saturday, October 02, 2004


yesterday was feeling very terrible..went to see my doc in the afternoon...he diagnosed me with...................sore throat, runny nose and fever...then went back home, thought im feeling better already so insisted in going to Oikos...but when i reached home after that, had a high fever...BUT praise the Lord..! He took care of me and healed feeling better already..jus a little irritation in the throat now..
yesterday i brought my bro to oikos...finally he agreed to go..!i really thank the Lord for bringing my bro back to His embrace..!tho im ill, im happy in my heart...cos of sooooo many good things have happen to me...and i oso wanna thank God for giving me Alvin korkor...a very kind and caring and crappy korkor...n very supportive too..Alvin kor---thanx a million for your support manz...heez..
k la..gotta go study liao...buh bye..!