Wednesday, January 31, 2007


Hey people!
I'll be moving to

in march.

but this blogger blog ain't dead. Cos it's my story, my life.
More photos from yesterday's coffee club outing...gurlie and i were cam-whoring...totally laughed our heads off. The waiters in the cafe were amused by us. I guess we all needed those laughters, really lifted our mood. ;)
i looked playful in this. gurlie gave the perfect smile.
i guess i looked a lil' dreadful in this..lols.
we looked mentally shagged. hey hey...whatcha' lookin' at manz?!
Heeee!!!! *blink blink* *Pout pout*
do we look farniez?! we're supposed to. LoLs!!

To my precious dahling:
you know you can just dial me if anything happens okie.
and though i'm going away soon, i'll be back in 5 months no worries alright??
when i'm in china, just mail me or msn me or just tag me.
we'll keep in contact ya.
Be brave and face life's ups and down with something i call courage okie,
"Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore."
-Andrew Gide.
1 more quote for you and for me;
"Failure is the only opportunity to begin again more intelligently."
-Henry Ford.
People can hate us but they can't take away the spirit in us, the one that spurs us to forward and fight on.
Love you loadz gurl, will miss you.
Yesterday night I went out with Marianne dahling to Siglap Coffee Club.
Went to get a drink and my favourite muddy mud pie!!!!
That's side track..our main point is to meet up and chat.
Chat our hearts out yesterday.
I'm so glad to see her.
You guys have no idea how important this dahling is to me,
even though we don't meet up for weeks or months, we'll think of each other the moment something important happened in our lives.
When we feel like laughing
or crying
or just plain sharing and encouraging,
we'll call each other.
some photos we took yesterday:

my muddy mud pie gurlie's chocolate enchantment yummy...hmmm...taste heavenly... gurlie is totally in the clouds....

something wrong with the blogger photo upload...will upload more when i can.

Monday, January 29, 2007


















I'm feeling so stressed and so down.

Someone teach me to be happy??


Sunday, January 28, 2007

I want to go away.

Let me go.


I'm tired.

Let me be me.

Thank you.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Yesterday I was totally bushed out.
I slept at 1.30am and woke up at 5.30am.
Did some last minute change to my marketing presentation slides and write my cue cards.
And rushed to school for the actual presentation.
O well, the presentation went quite smoothly.
Everything was good and we really put in a lot of effort.
Finally finish MOST of my assignments,
left with New Media Collage/Global Issues Term Paper/Presentation Skills Final Project/Marketing Test/ConLang Exam.
Oh yep, there's no school today so i went shopping with my brother.
We went to Bugis street, and I bought a big knapsack for myself.
So happy because it's useful for my trip to Mongolia. ;)
Cost only $20!!! But plus the grocceries i bought today, i used up my last dime.
Poor me! I'm left with no dough but quite contented lah.
Now setting out for oikos, talk more later!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Sometimes, certain things are hard to forget.
Especially when feelings are deeply etched in one's heart.

This morning before the sun was up, i dreamt of Bee2 again.
Yes, you didn't read wrongly, the word is AGAIN.
I used to call him Bee2, I wonder if he'll ever call me Di2 again.

The dream was very short but shockingly surreal;
I was waiting for eBlood when i saw Bee2 alighting the bus with eBlood and some other people.
I was shocked and as usual, I became totally quiet when I saw Bee2.
We walked quite a distance and during this walk, eBlood was far ahead of me.
He was talking to other girls while Bee2 was right beside me.
We said nothing but somehow we know we've got a lot to say to each other.
In the end, I was so disappointed with eBlood for ignoring me, i turned and shouted goodbye to everyone.
Bee2 looked at me knowingly and smiled with this understanding that connects both our souls.
That smile brought me peace and jolt back a series of memories that we shared.
And I woke up like that, in the dark, with the feeling lingering within me.

Feelings so deep,
so hard to fade.
Only time will tell,
only time will help.

I still remember the first time we held hands was in Bus 14.
That day, we decided to take the long bus ride home instead of the mrt.
That bus ride was really long.
I was feeling so cold in there that i started shivering.
He reached for my hands and warmth just passed through.

I also remember we love to go to the library together to study.
Though we study different things but we just love each other's company.
Our favourite place was Esplanade library.
When I always got too tensed up and focused in my revision,
he'll rub my neck for me.

On 2005's Christmas eve, we went to Mac for supper after the musical.
Everybody was teasing us.
He walked me home and before we parted, we hugged.
That was the first time I tasted what was called,
"Goodnight, goodnight. Parting was such sweet sorrow."

Maybe he doesn't remember all these, but they are all kept in one corner of my heart.
For memories.

Now I've got eBlood loving me so much and I love him too.
Bee2 will be part of my memory, a very sweet yet hurtful past.
Bee2 is history, eBlood is what really means to me now.

with much love,

Monday, January 22, 2007

I'm so happy today.
Nah, scratch that. I'm happy since yesterday night.
All thanks to eBlood.
He brought me to watch the stars and breathe in the fresh sea breeze.
So romantic right.
Hahaha ;)
And the stars are really beautiful, shinning beneath the hues of mauve and navy blue.
They make me feel so relaxed.
~*dreamy eyes*~
Thank you my dear, it was really sweet of you.
I feel so blissful today.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

nostalgia and fame

I went back to my previous church this morning.
They changed their name to Hope Presbyterian Church [HPC]
A tad too quiet for me.
Well, and no one recognised me at all. I think I've really changed a lot.
Be it character or looks. Hahaha.
Guess I'm too used to attending a charismatic church.
Perhaps I'll visit City Harvest Church next week.

We sang this song this morning. And i love it.

As Bread That Is Broken
Many hearts are hungry tonight
Many trapped in darkness
Yearn for the light
So many who are far from home
And many who are lost
O Lord Your wounded children need
The power of Your cross

As bread that is broken
Use our lives
As wine that is poured out
A willing sacrifice
Empower us Father
To share the love of Christ
As bread that is broken Lord
Use our lives

Help us to begin where we are
Help us love the people
Near to our hearts
Then give our faith a mission field
Wherever You may call
Lord love Your world
Through each of us
Until we've touched them all

( Repeat Chorus Twice )

As wine that is poured out Lord
As bread that is broken Lord
Use our lives

Oh yeah, i went for filming yesterday afternoon.
Acted as a rebellious girl cum an ah-lian wannabe.
Well, I get to know another group of media friends, network built again.
Oh and before I forget, I might get the deal on acting in a music video for Adidas.
That is, if it doesn't clash with my China trip.
Really hope I can get it. Pretty please....

My eyelids are drooping now, help, I'm tired.
Will blog more later, let me sleep now.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

some tests i took out of boredom..

Your Beauty Element is Air
You're quirky, fresh, and fashionable in a surprising way.You have a beauty that's all your own, and it changes as quickly as the wind!

Your Reputation Is: Maneater
You're the kind of girl all the chicks hate...And guys are both scared of you yet strangely drawn in.

Your Element is Fire
Your power color: red
Your energy: hot
Your season: spring
Like a fire, you are full of power and light.A born leader, you easily draw people toward you.You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous.You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.
What Element Are You?

You Are Champagne

A true mystery, no one can quite figure you out...
That is, until you start drinking. Then you tend to let loose.
You're fun to drink with, but it definitely takes you a few drinks to loosen up.
You prefer to date a man who likes the finer things in life... like a five star dinner with that champagne.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

i can't wait to leave Singapore.
of course i'll miss my family and my slAckers inc. and my divas'Club.
and maybe someone else.
i look forward to live a life of my own out there.
even though yes, i'll be coming back in July, i hope to go leave Singapore again.
for a longer period of time. maybe for years.
it's not that Singapore ain't good, just that, sometimes leaving is a better choice.
i miss my slAckers inc. so much.
especially precious dahling marianne, cutie dahling feng, louis sweetie, jocelyn mama, ah long, ethan, nigel...
you guys have always been there, no matter what.
we've been through fun, tears, fury and the coldest wars ever.
sigh...6 years plus of friendship...and some love complications within...
a toast to our friendship!!!~may our friendship continue for years to come!!! =)
^everyone will want to go on a ride in a limo, but all we want is someone to take the bus with us when the limo is down.^
these few weeks i've been a little emo..
guess it's all due to the leaving for China in 5 weeks.
i never knew leaving was this tough.
i thought it was just going away to another place to live the life there.
but i guess there are just too many things and close ones that make me turn my head to look and ponder or reminisce about.
but i still want to leave(not mentioning this trip to China), even if it's after my service to the government.
a bigger world out there for me to experience.
i'll miss my family, relatives, teachers and mentors, my close ones, especially my gang.
i'll miss Singapore's food.
i'll miss the laughters i have with my slAckers inc.
i'll miss the dinners i have with my listener aka my bitching partner-louis sweetie.
i'll miss my enoch and eden, our heart to heart chats and bitching around.
i'll miss clubbing around with my divas.
i'll miss loadz of stuff here..
but loadz of things are out there waiting for me to go learn and experience.
i can't miss out on those.
nope, i'll leave but certain things and people will always be there in my mind, in my heart.
love you guys. ;)
i finished my business presentation on friday!!!
it went on quite smoothly.
ah kwek kinda like our proposal, i guess.
we're gonna work it out man!!!
here are some of us in our business wear..

yes, even though we had a hard time trying to rush and complete our proposal and rehearse many many times, we had fun. even though we felt uncomfortable and a tad too proffesional in our business wear, we still had fun cam-whoring. LoL. ;)

some pictures that came late...those i took during zoo outing with my classmates..

pretty huh? nah, scratch that. it's gorgeous. LoL. there are loadz more coming up...but can't upload them all at once..hahaha..

now i'm left with my marketing project TI TOU DAO/new media photoshop collage/ presentation skills final assignment/ global issue term paper/ interpretation exam/ contemporary chinese language test 3 and final exam.

alrit0, time for me to get workin'. whoo!~

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

i've never been so mortified!!!

as usual, today is a busy day for me.

i went to the school in the morning to install Photoshop CS2 into my laptop.
then, pingz, qinx, qing jie and me gather for chinese presentation skills project meeting.
o well, i was the entertainment of the day manz.
i guess we're all so bored and tired with our damn project that we decided to do something stupid.
it all started with pingz playing and messing with my hair as i was compiling our presentation, then she and qinx found a rubber band. and they gleefully tied my hair up into some clownish hairstyle. Like that.

if you think this is bad, there's worse. i looked damn idiotic and FAT, rite??!! DARN!!!
very good. i continued with my compilation.
who knows they got me to act in their short clip. just to entertain them. a very great pal of theirs, i agreed.
so they film me with my crazy acting and clownish hairstyle.
freak. they all laughed their heads off, alright alright..laugh away.
BUT!!!! pingz asked qinx to send her the short clip. they decided to share the "joy".
qinx accidentally sent the short clip to some stranger by the name of eunice!!!!!
Oh My 天!!!
i'm utterly mortified by what happened!!!!
the clip might be share online with many on YouTube.
what will become of me?!! my future is RUINED!!!

qinx ar qinx...what have you done to my reputation??!!

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

busy but satisfying..

O well i haven't been blogging for a long time i guess.
haven't been updating you guys.

well, i've been really busy with school work and preparation for my end semester exams.
reason being i'm going over to China, Hangzhou real soon.
In matter of 5 weeks, i guess.

i'm also busy with filming for the Film Sound Video students, for their final year productions.
Met a lot of media people as well as get to know a lot of great friends.
All of them are friendly people and i really had loads of fun working with them.
here are some photos of us on set...

our precious camera, specially set up by joyce poh.
no one touches it except for camera man and his assistant.

Director and camera man both stressed up...discussing the script and stuff..very hardworking..doing the work while we sleeping...heehee..thumbs up for them!!

these are what we do when we've got break. we take "bhangra break"!!!! we SLEEEEP!!!! LoL.

the setting up and rehearsals and tiring...but fun with satisfaction..esp when u can get one-take wonders!! whee!~ Acting is fun, totally love it. told you i'm born an actress. haha!

This week i'm fully packed with projects and next week i'm packed with assignments and revision for exams.
See, my life is damn busy.
but i love it.
cheers to the busy days!!! woohoo!!~*

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Specially to Louis, my friend for life.

i really really really love the christmas present you gave to me.
a compilation of the fun we had all these time.
-smilez- your lil' princess forever, alright...?
i got you a present too.
something to remind you of me, even when you're very very busy.

thank you for being there for me when i needed you.
thank you for bearing with all my nonsense all these 6 years.
thank you for listening to me yell, scream, cry, laugh, smile, talk all the nonsensical rubbish.
thank you for letting me play a fool and be me even though sometimes i hurt you a lot.
most of all, thank you for loving me and taking care of me even though sometimes i could be so mean and bad-tempered.

just want to tell you;
take good care my dearest friend.
must miss me when i'm in china lah, but don't miss until cry badly hor. LoL.
help me take care of marianne, feng and the gurls.
make sure you all keep J.D. slackers inc. going on..
and keep in contact even though i'm away.

i really appreciate everything you've done for me, thank you so much.

with loadz of love,