很多时候，每当只有我们俩在一起时，它总是以很委屈的眼神看着我。
它问我：
我们在一起那么久了，你却不曾带我出去。你每天都把我关在这间房子里，这间名叫心的房子里。
对不起，我真的带着千种亏欠。
我很怕总有一天，你会放弃我而我会渐渐被闷死。
不要！我求你不要死！我不是不要让你出来，不过我真的还没有那个能力带你出来。你等我，拜托你！
我等你五年了！五年前我们在剧团里邂逅，我就在你的心等了五年啊！你到底还要我等多久啊？
不久不久，多五年，就只是多五年，好么？
五年？你要我再等多一个五年？我会爆炸的！我要飞翔！
就五年，五年后我一定带你出来。
我害怕，害怕五年后我可能丧失那个出来的胆量。我害怕当阳光照射在我身上时，我可能会中暑。我担心我得到自由后，我会胆怯而失去平衡。
我向你担保我一定会让你出来的。你是我的未来，我的梦想，我不会让你难受的。
唉，我想我也只能等吧，对么？
我对它的失落，无言以对。
Monday, August 27, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
the finishing line
Ah well, I'm kinda paralysed now without my laptop.
I've sent it to Acer for repair.
Hard disk totally destroyed, what's the worse?
I didn't back up my data.
So, yeah. I lost everything.
Sho' sadd.
Today's speaker talked about making our life count for Jesus.
And the finality, finishing and the finale of life.
Of course, he spoke about funeral too.
So, I was thinking when I die one day, what will my funeral be like?
No, I want to have two funerals.
One before I die, the other after I'm dead.
I'll invite my friends and family to my "living" funeral.
And everyone of them has to prepare a testimonial for me.
As I'm lying on my queen-size bed, all of them will crowd around me and put white trumpet lilies on me, then they'll read their testimonials for me.
After that, we'll do praise and worship(singspiration), and my heart will dance along with the music beats.
Then, we'll have FOOD!!! Loads of food!!!
There'll be Prawn Aglio Olio, Baked cheesy macaroni, my brother's famous Bread and Butter pudding, Banana Chocolate Cake, all Peranakan food, and my favorite Braised pork intestines.
Hmmm......yummy!!!
When I passed away, my funeral will be celebrated with loud funky music, christian upbeat songs, and everyone must dance and clap and sing with joy.
Hmmm......it would be best if everyone can wear bright colours!
Like red, yellow, orange, lime green, turqoise, etc etc.
And I shall have my photo in a huge poster size, where everybody can see the sunlight in my smile.
Oh, it'll be really nice if there's good food and alcohol. Teehee! =)
我是一个不甘心一生平淡生活的女人。
我的生活需要颜色，需要更加的多姿多彩。
所以，自然的也比较戏剧化。
我深爱这样的我。
I've sent it to Acer for repair.
Hard disk totally destroyed, what's the worse?
I didn't back up my data.
So, yeah. I lost everything.
Sho' sadd.
Today's speaker talked about making our life count for Jesus.
And the finality, finishing and the finale of life.
Of course, he spoke about funeral too.
So, I was thinking when I die one day, what will my funeral be like?
No, I want to have two funerals.
One before I die, the other after I'm dead.
I'll invite my friends and family to my "living" funeral.
And everyone of them has to prepare a testimonial for me.
As I'm lying on my queen-size bed, all of them will crowd around me and put white trumpet lilies on me, then they'll read their testimonials for me.
After that, we'll do praise and worship(singspiration), and my heart will dance along with the music beats.
Then, we'll have FOOD!!! Loads of food!!!
There'll be Prawn Aglio Olio, Baked cheesy macaroni, my brother's famous Bread and Butter pudding, Banana Chocolate Cake, all Peranakan food, and my favorite Braised pork intestines.
Hmmm......yummy!!!
When I passed away, my funeral will be celebrated with loud funky music, christian upbeat songs, and everyone must dance and clap and sing with joy.
Hmmm......it would be best if everyone can wear bright colours!
Like red, yellow, orange, lime green, turqoise, etc etc.
And I shall have my photo in a huge poster size, where everybody can see the sunlight in my smile.
Oh, it'll be really nice if there's good food and alcohol. Teehee! =)
我是一个不甘心一生平淡生活的女人。
我的生活需要颜色，需要更加的多姿多彩。
所以，自然的也比较戏剧化。
我深爱这样的我。
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
881 crew
My mom, me, my brother with May&Choy.
I thought they were haughty and proud.
Apparently I was wrong. They were really friendly and humble.
They said to my mom, " Come Aunty, join us lah."
Plus, they are PRETTY!!! =)
Me with Royston Tan at tampines. He's so friendly and he looks kinda coy when I praise his movie 881. Humble, talented and charming. What more can you ask for? Love him loh.
Teehee~ Whee~ =)
A pity though I didn't take pictures with Mindee Ong and Yeo Yann Yann.
But still, whee!~
Monday, August 13, 2007
movies
Life in NIE is cool.
New environment, new lecturers, new understanding of life.
But the old problem still lingers.
My puking thingy.
It's really bad, I threw up everything I eat.
I feel nauseous everytime the image of food pops into my head.
Why ah?
Yesterday night I went out with my family for movie.
Watched 881 by Roystan Tan, at Marina Square.
It's totally local, and glittering.
I never knew ge-tai could be so......humane, so touching.
It's about dreams, love and sisterhood.
I give 5 out of 5 popcorns for the plot and
5 out of 5 popcorns for the acting and directing.
We had our share of laughter and tears, you see all the girls with puffy eyes, red noses and tissue paper in one hand when we all exit the cinema, even the guys sobbed.
Cried my eyes out for 881.
Liu Ling Ling is GOOD manz! Whoot~ She really plays the 大姐大 character well, richly local-flavoured.
Mindee Ong and Yeo Yann Yann are good for ge-tai can.
You see them REALLY smiling while singing, you see the laughter in their eyes.
And the sisterhood they show, whootz!~ that's the thing that make girls cry.
Aiyah, say so much also no use.
You MUST go watch!!!
Sure make you laugh and cry with puffy eyes!
Ha! ( tell you something: I'm gonna watch AGAIN!!! =P )
But The Secret by Jay Chou sucks manz.
I expected better results from him.
He's a big disappointment.
2 out of 5 popcorns for him.
Don't ask me, I'm super pissed off with his show which is a waste of my time.
I mean, I don't deny that he is gifted in music and the concept is good but seriously,
I think there's much room for improvement.
Really lor.
New environment, new lecturers, new understanding of life.
But the old problem still lingers.
My puking thingy.
It's really bad, I threw up everything I eat.
I feel nauseous everytime the image of food pops into my head.
Why ah?
Yesterday night I went out with my family for movie.
Watched 881 by Roystan Tan, at Marina Square.
It's totally local, and glittering.
I never knew ge-tai could be so......humane, so touching.
It's about dreams, love and sisterhood.
I give 5 out of 5 popcorns for the plot and
5 out of 5 popcorns for the acting and directing.
We had our share of laughter and tears, you see all the girls with puffy eyes, red noses and tissue paper in one hand when we all exit the cinema, even the guys sobbed.
Cried my eyes out for 881.
Liu Ling Ling is GOOD manz! Whoot~ She really plays the 大姐大 character well, richly local-flavoured.
Mindee Ong and Yeo Yann Yann are good for ge-tai can.
You see them REALLY smiling while singing, you see the laughter in their eyes.
And the sisterhood they show, whootz!~ that's the thing that make girls cry.
Aiyah, say so much also no use.
You MUST go watch!!!
Sure make you laugh and cry with puffy eyes!
Ha! ( tell you something: I'm gonna watch AGAIN!!! =P )
But The Secret by Jay Chou sucks manz.
I expected better results from him.
He's a big disappointment.
2 out of 5 popcorns for him.
Don't ask me, I'm super pissed off with his show which is a waste of my time.
I mean, I don't deny that he is gifted in music and the concept is good but seriously,
I think there's much room for improvement.
Really lor.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
"Lazy" Saturday
Ah well, another lazy Saturday.
But I'm not lazy at all.
I cleaned the whole house inside out and did the laundry, felt great after perspiring all over.
Beads of perspiration glided down my face and the cuffs of my sleeves stuck onto my underarms, I felt......worked-out. If there's ever such a word.
Hahaha.
This morning I opened my eyelids only to see the worried face of my mother hovering over me.
The first question she popped was," Are you drunk?"
I rolled my delicate eyeballs and told her it was Artie who was totally knocked out, not me.
Well, could see that she was pretty upset about what happened but I explained to her it's part of clubbing, I'll see that my brother practise some self-control next time.
Anyway, Artie's still having a hangover from yesterday.
Hope he'll be okay in the evening, now he's taking his nap.
Heh.
Cannot tahan him leh. He better learn his lesson manz.
Now, I'm going to make myself a cup of tea and listen to my mp3.
Maybe I'll hit the bed too.
YawnZz......
But I'm not lazy at all.
I cleaned the whole house inside out and did the laundry, felt great after perspiring all over.
Beads of perspiration glided down my face and the cuffs of my sleeves stuck onto my underarms, I felt......worked-out. If there's ever such a word.
Hahaha.
This morning I opened my eyelids only to see the worried face of my mother hovering over me.
The first question she popped was," Are you drunk?"
I rolled my delicate eyeballs and told her it was Artie who was totally knocked out, not me.
Well, could see that she was pretty upset about what happened but I explained to her it's part of clubbing, I'll see that my brother practise some self-control next time.
Anyway, Artie's still having a hangover from yesterday.
Hope he'll be okay in the evening, now he's taking his nap.
Heh.
Cannot tahan him leh. He better learn his lesson manz.
Now, I'm going to make myself a cup of tea and listen to my mp3.
Maybe I'll hit the bed too.
YawnZz......
PLAY with me
Gawd......I can't believe I'm here 3 in the morning, trying to blog.
Actually, I came home from PLAY around 1.30am.
I was half drunk, not totally knocked out.
After removing my makeup and changing into my BIG tee, I was about to sleep,
let's say.......around 2 in the morning.
Then, I received a call from 'Nic, only to find out he's half sober and my brother's totally knocked out.
Gosh, I asked him to put Artie in a cab and send him back.
I almost fell asleep waiting for them.
2.45am. The cab reached my house. I looked out of the window and saw 'Nic unable to balance himself and my brother on the floor, right beside the cab.
I rushed down and picked my brother up.
Gawd......you have no idea how bad the situation is.
It's so hard to bring my brother back home.
But I managed.
However, brother I'm sorry.
I think you knocked your head when I was trying to drag you back home.
So, do check for bruises here and there.
Finally, I brought him home and clean him up and put him in bed.
So now I'm here, made myself a cup of tea and writing.
To 'Nic: dude, thanks a gazillionz for sending my brother home. You better have a good rest yeah. See you on Sunday for F.O.P!
Yeah, PLAY was fun. I'm lovin' it! =)
Actually, I came home from PLAY around 1.30am.
I was half drunk, not totally knocked out.
After removing my makeup and changing into my BIG tee, I was about to sleep,
let's say.......around 2 in the morning.
Then, I received a call from 'Nic, only to find out he's half sober and my brother's totally knocked out.
Gosh, I asked him to put Artie in a cab and send him back.
I almost fell asleep waiting for them.
2.45am. The cab reached my house. I looked out of the window and saw 'Nic unable to balance himself and my brother on the floor, right beside the cab.
I rushed down and picked my brother up.
Gawd......you have no idea how bad the situation is.
It's so hard to bring my brother back home.
But I managed.
However, brother I'm sorry.
I think you knocked your head when I was trying to drag you back home.
So, do check for bruises here and there.
Finally, I brought him home and clean him up and put him in bed.
So now I'm here, made myself a cup of tea and writing.
To 'Nic: dude, thanks a gazillionz for sending my brother home. You better have a good rest yeah. See you on Sunday for F.O.P!
Yeah, PLAY was fun. I'm lovin' it! =)
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Thank you people
First and foremost, a BIG thank you to all, for the birthday gifts and birthday wishes.
You people are sho' sweeeeet!!!!
I had a great time yesterday night with gurlie at Siglap.
It was fun chatting and laughing with my sis, it's like having the ol' times back in me.
Hahaha.
Heys sis, do send me the pictures we took alright?
Love ya dearest! =)
Thank you people, thank you!
I gotta shed more fats.
Great.
-raise my glass-
To shedding of fats.
You people are sho' sweeeeet!!!!
I had a great time yesterday night with gurlie at Siglap.
It was fun chatting and laughing with my sis, it's like having the ol' times back in me.
Hahaha.
Heys sis, do send me the pictures we took alright?
Love ya dearest! =)
Thank you people, thank you!
I gotta shed more fats.
Great.
-raise my glass-
To shedding of fats.
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