Ronnie, sometimes we just couldn't find the answer for certain things.
Many things are not so definite and straightforward.
If Lisa doesn't have an answer for you, it means she really have no idea why she made a decision like this, she's just following her heart OR she knew but she'd rather only she knows.

Human are complicated creatures.
Some can live with a simple mind and a simple life,
but some can't help but be complicated.

At times, we love to hide our feelings.
What's beneath the facade of laughter and twinkle, others have no idea.
Perhaps people close to your heart will know.

I always proclaim myself as a girl stronger than others.
I don't cry easily, I climb up and pick up broken pieces in life much easier than normal girls.
But when the heart aches, no one can see, well, except God of course.
We conceal the cracks perfectly, no matter what ways we used.
But who actually knows that all that glitters is not gold...

Maybe when we hide or detach ourselves,
we find it easier to move on with life.
The world don't stop spinning because of how we feel you know.

Sigh. Life goes on, Ronnie.
P.S. I'm so glad you picked up your bible and experienced God once again.
Take good care yeah.