sigh.
somethings are just so confusing.

i wish i was more sure of myself.
especially now.

i know it aint really the external factors that's stopping me.
i mean, though they are part of what's holding me back.
but the real thing that's stopping me is myself.

fun+feelings= ????

why am i holding back?
i also don't know.
just don't want to messed up my life, i guess.

i need to think through properly.
think gurl, think.

blah.
i'm just blabbering things none of you can understand.
only God knows.
lols. =)