^ "i'm a source of entertainment but i entertain everyone but you."
~ "it's ok, i'm a source of entertainment myself."
^ "no, i don entertain you 'cause i love you."

i was stunned.
really am.
not just the words, but the tone also.
yar, the tone from the heart.
i was shocked.
lols.

yesterday we had Fit For Christ in church.
captain's ball matches and soccer matches.
hey i made myself useful by helping out k.
hee..as the timekeeper. ;)
oo oh & as cheerleader too!
cheered for the guys.
lols. heh. maybe a lil' too loud.
we had fun yesterday lah.

but i got interogated by loads of people lah.
all thanks to *ahem*.
lols.
but heck lah, what can i do if people wants to gossip??
can't stop them can i?
anyways, i've threw caution into the wind
sooooo...like that lah.
don't want to think too much about anything.
;)

exam finally over!
time for slacking now.
waiting for my J.D. slackers inc. to start workin' manz.
lol :P

to my dyl' darlin':
i'm so glad you found what you really want.
& if i'm your life's turning point, tell me.
just tell me wont you, let me feel good lah.
lols. kiddin'.
but i am really really really happy for you.
love you so much.

to my honey dear:
thanks a gazillionz for playing "Right Here Waiting" over the phone for me.
i love it.
i love you too.
yes and i admit
you melted my heart with that.
okay, melted a bit lah.
lol. ;)

i looked through my message folder now and then.
read your messages to me.
i smiled.
and then i paused and think.
i frowned.
but still,
i threw caution into the winds
and i smiled again.

FYI, wish you were here with me.
love you.
:)

so many things cannot blog.
like what ronnie kor kor say,
we bloggers will die of over-exposure.
& ronnie dear don't think you know what i'm talking about okay.
lols.
but i'll tell you one day.
one day when we meet up.

to my J.D. dahlings:
only you guys don't object to my decision.
only you guys know.
only you guys know my pattern & let me be who i am.
you guys loooooovvvvveeeee me yeah!!!
love you guys soooooo muchie.
-BIG HUGZ- ;)

revision week for C. mod Lit exam.
die la. must at least get A for mod Lit lah.
only module i'm good at this semester.
bah!

my cutie dahling and my precious dahling,
romance is in the air huh...
lols ;)
update okay!!!
lols.

*flying kisses to everyone out there!*
catch 'em, people!
hahahaha!!!

sigh.
somethings are just so confusing.

i wish i was more sure of myself.
especially now.

i know it aint really the external factors that's stopping me.
i mean, though they are part of what's holding me back.
but the real thing that's stopping me is myself.

fun+feelings= ????

why am i holding back?
i also don't know.
just don't want to messed up my life, i guess.

i need to think through properly.
think gurl, think.

blah.
i'm just blabbering things none of you can understand.
only God knows.
lols. =)

i was in dramabox studio yesterday since 9 in the morning.
did loads of run throughs and technical runs.
but i never skipped my lunch k.
heehee. had green tea for lunch.
lols.
at least i took sugar drinks instead of plain water.
i'm gonna miss my drama lect ah liang.
i'm starting to miss him soooooooooooo muchie.
he taught us alot. but its always not enough time for acting and directing.
ah liang! we're gonna miss you!!!
make sure i see you in NIE kk.
hehe. :P

haha!
yay!! dahlings i finally get to see you guys again yesterday!!!
another pocket of memory to keep.
lols. ;)

okay, first and foremost!!!!
VIVIAN!
Happy Birthday to YOU!!!!
love you love you love you!!!

i really had a great time yesterday!
let me refresh who's present yesterday...
hmmm...nigel(my air porkey,lols.), chongyu( you caught my flying kisses! lols.), huggy dahling(weishan), cutie dahling(ling feng), bithday gurl(vivian), my precious dahling(marianne gurlie) and jocelyn mimi(my gr8 advisor) and of course, me(MandaTheGreat!). lols.

we had dinner at cafe cartel,
dahlings i dont mean to traumatize tt waiter la please.
i was just a tad sweeter when i get him to take my orders.
he's the one that's pumping his own heart that hard loh.
other waiters and waitresses don have that kinda reaction la.
not my fault k..
i stop le ma...after he got into trouble.
actually, i treat every waiters and waitresses the same loh.
to the female manager, i oso like that what...
bah...whatever.
lols.

then we all went sugar high and sing and take pictures.
after that we sent chongyu home with our flying kisses and huggies.
chongyu you betta appreciate us ok, so many gurls so good to you leh.
lols. k la don tease you le.
then we met donald and took bus 67 to D.P.
continue sugar high, sashay and sing then confessions and emo.
i guess i looked as if im drunk, i couldn't even walked properly.
lols.
but actually im just "sugar high" la.
my J.D. gang knows me style. haha!
lols.
i love you guys manz.
then my advisor gimme her opinions.
haha! oh ya & precious dahling said she was glad me, cutie dahling and her
are somewhat in the same situation now. ha!

Ooo..i love the last part,
i think this is the first time we do this kinda thg.
we all hug together and tell each other best wishes and how much we appreciate each other
and stuff like that.
so emo. :')
lols.
thankew guys for the hugs and kisses before i go home.
LOVE LOVE LOVE you all!!!
muackz!

took a bus home.
reached home around 12plus.
checked my mail and dom!
fell asleep without washing my eyeliner make up.
lols.
i was that tired.

RENT SOUNDTRACK- Take Me Or Leave Me

MAUREEN:
Every single day, I walk down the street
I hear people say, "Baby's so sweet"
Ever since puberty, everybody stares at me,
Boys - girls, I can't help it baby
So be kind, and don't lose your mind
Just remember that I'm your baby
Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me
Take me baby or leave me
A tiger in a cage can never see the sun
This diva needs her stage,
Baby - let's have fun!
You are the one I choose
Folks would kill to fill your shoes
You love the limelight too, now baby
So be mine but don't waste my time
Cryin' - "O' Honeybear - are you still my my my baby?"

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me
No way - can I be what I'm not
But hey - don't you want your girl hot!
Don't fight - don't lose your head
'Cause every night - who's in your bed?
Who, who's in your bed, baby?
Kiss, Pookie.

updates for my dahlings!
J.D. peeps!!! i miss you guys!!!

precious dahling, all the best with u and F.
don end up like me and u-noe-who.
messed up. doesn look like, but it is.
dunno how to tell you,
will explain in details tmr nite at party.

cutie feng dahling,
u and J must make sure u both are v sure of the feelings u guys have k.
and make sure he's a good guy.
cos i nv see him b4.
tell him if he dare bully u, don blame me for being a bad gurl again.
lol ;)

i miss everyone!!!!!!!!!

nic dear!!!!! im so happy for you now you're married!!!!!
make sure u bring your dear to join us in bitchin' k.
lols.

dyl darlin' !! don get too stressed up over work k. love ya loadz.
u din update me abt your romance or flings or whatever it is now.
so sad. lols. dear don worry rmbr we're the B&F material.
we're gonna shock the world with that yeah!!!

lols. im so in the hols mood now la.
damn. lols. ;)

CAM-WHORING with my brother!!!

i'm ALMOST done with my school assignments!!!!
only left with 2 assignments.
and that's Acting&Directing final project and MyPaper project.
O well of course my C. lit exam on 25th Aug.
but try my best lah kays.

my cutie juniors and moi! At NLB drama centre after watching "Stranger At Home". jeremy & Dyl darlin' are sooooooo handsome right! one's a cutie, the other's a bitch boy!

i miss my ol' gang! my J.D. gang!!!! i'm missing you guys!!! Gurlie my darlin' who's owiz dere, feng my cute darl, jocelyn my mimi, wak's darling, louis my poor boy who's been axed so many times by me, Kikiwi my shy boy boy, nigel u piggy ass and of course many many others out there who came and left, came and left and stayed. J.D. inc. when can we get 2gether again and do crazy stuff once more?!

also to nic dear and dyl darlin'! damn u boys! i miss bitching around with you guys! the Diva's calling for her NicDear and DylDarlin'!! & make sure we recruit MX in and transform him. lols! we must practise our art of bitchin' and flirtin' once again.

Gosh...! when the 2 months break is here, i'm gonna let my hair loose and have fun!!

though exhausted, im happy

All i can say is i'm now rushing assignments.
bahness!
i'm exhausted man.
but can't stop.
gotta keep running.
juggle church activities, work and family.
i'm really tired.
but i still enjoy life.
cause i love it.
muackz to all of you out there!
cause i'm happy!
;)