终于有时间blog

我总是爱问自己：我到底做出正确的选择吗？
当我选择了和教育部签下“卖身契”的决定，我是否走错了这一步？
我不停地询问自己。
后来，不知道听谁说了一句话，我像是被点醒似的。
那个人说：“人生的每一个阶段都是一个舞台，你处在哪一个舞台，就扮演好你在那个舞台的角色，甚至要扮演的更好，更加地淋漓尽致。”
既然，我选择了教学的舞台，那我就应该尽心尽力扮演好我教师的角色。
我为何要质疑、后悔我的选择或者把自己拖垮呢？
履行我五年的合约后，我还是一条好汉，还是属于舞台的演员。
到时候，又是另一种舞台，另一种角色扮演，另一种体验了。

刚才，我在冲凉时，研究出一种解除压力与疲惫的好方法。
我把自己冲干净后，然后坐在浴室的地板上，再把花撒调到头顶上，让水唰唰唰地打在我头上身上。
尽量让脑子放空，什么都别想，就像睡觉一样。
感觉一下水与皮肤之间的跳动。
然后，慢慢地用手捂着耳朵。
这样子，耳边听到的是瀑布似的声音。
那种感觉很原始，也非常的新鲜刺激。
当你睁开眼睛，可能就没那么累，感觉也轻松多了。
至少这是我研究出来的方法呀！
试试看吧！
=）

the boys

Art and Zac are in National Service, Pulau Tekong.
Nic is in Zhejiang, China.
Sigh.
I miss them boys.
I hope Nic is still going on safe and strong in China.
I pray that Art and Zac are doing well in Tekong, I really hope they are strong both physically and emotionally, to go through National Service.
I truly miss my brother.
Miss the times we observe people and chat.
Miss the times we eat good food and drink and make merry.
Miss the times we talk and share secrets and lend support to each other.
I feel like crying, every time I got happy news or got myself into trouble, the first one I turn to is my brother.
Now, I really want Artie!!!
Now, then I realised I really rely too much on my brother.
Sigh.
I want my brother.
I just pray everything will be going fine for him in there.
Ameneth.

music video production

Monday blues today?
Nope, absolutely no moody-me today.
Just a little exhausted from the assignments as well as the music video shoot I took on Saturday and Sunday.
And you know, with the bad cough and flu bug attack, I'm totally down on my immune system.
But anyway, I had fun doing the music video.
Well, I played the female role who got peeked at by her neighbour, then slapped by her boyfriend and finally, being proposed by her boyfriend who gave her a hug and a weird ring.
*roll my delicate eyeballs*
Don't think it's easy acting, 'cos it's not.
But that's where I like it, it's challenging and I get the kick out of it.
At first, Tim(the guy who acted as my boyfriend)didn't dare to slap me.
Awww......he's too much of a humble gentleman.
Hahaha. But apparently because he's too gentlemenly, the slap kinda looked fake.
So, I looked into his eyes and said,"Tim! Slap me, just slap me hard and swift!"
He went like, "No......I cannot."
"Just give me a REAL slap!"
And then, action!
PIACK!!! Right smack, hard on my cheeks.
I was like, GRRRREEAT!!! You know, the feeling is as if I've got an Oscar award.
But the problem was, the crew were too shocked for words and Tim, stunned by the slap turned to the camera and stick out his tongue.
Sighers.
So, we took about 4 takes of real slaps before we got the best one.
Everyone was concern whether the slaps were too hard on me, I told them that everything's ok and not to worry.
Tim was sucha good friend, he took a pack of ice for me to de-swell.
Hahaha. =)
But there's another scene that's more difficult to take than the slapping one.
It's the proposal cum hugging scene.
'Cos everyone was laughing their heads off.
I just burst out laughing.
Took me quite a while to settle into the romantic feel, you know.
Maybe Tim's a little more comical than my previous counterparts in other productions, that's why I laughed so much when I'm supposed to be romantic with him.
Lols~
Albeit the slaps and awkward hugs, I had fun. Whee!~
=)

随笔

最近，生活很忙碌，但是，很单调。
我一点也不喜欢。
以前的我，虽然忙碌，但我不觉得累，反而觉得生活多姿多彩。
而且过得充实。
我真的不知道自己是怎么了。

不知道健安现在还好么，希望他在杭州会愉快。
健安，如果你在读我的博克，记得发个电邮给我哦！
会想念你的，我的好弟弟！=）

going away

Awww......I'm going to send 'Nic off later.
He's going to China to study for 4 and a half months, just like me, previously.
Hope he likes the farewell present I got him.
Gonna miss him so much loh.

After his departure, the next will be Zac and Art.
Nope, they won't be going to China.
But they are going into NS.
Sighs.
Everyone's going away soon.

A little too soon.