brother bernard passed away..

i think im going crazy. im working everydayexcept wednesday, whether i want to go or not. which means no choice. sigh..

he passed away. brother bernard. the brother that i prayed for and i believed he will be healed. i received the news on friday. i was stunned then my face crumpled and i cried in front of my oikos members. i couldn't control myself & i wept & wept. i grieved.
i told kevin i was sad and disappointed. he told me smthg which think makes sense. he said of course everyone hopes that healing will take place. everyone hopes that the cancer in brother bernard's body will be driven away. but maybe it's better for the Lord to take him away because a patient with cancer suffers alot of pain. & it's extremely painful if they live with the burden of cancer. it's so painful that they could die for the painkillers. so the Lord may have taken him up so that he suffers no more.

i believe God took his life for a reason. & that is he'll suffer no more.


i miss school!i want to go back to school. i miss frens, teachers & my classrooms and the ava room, music room, the hall, the canteen and even the toilets!! & last but not least, DRAMA!!!