cubicle thoughts

*sitting in my office now*

I am having my break time now.
Finished marking my students' assignments, so I spent some time thinking about some stuff.

I was thinking of my students.
What is the reason for them to rebel or disobey?
Why is it that sometimes, I have to scold and scream at them?
Why can't I speak to them like how Jesus spoke to us? Jesus's compassionate and gentle tone makes us stop and think.
But when I speak to my students nicely, some listen yet some push the limits and therefore I need to scream at them.
I really want to figure out WHY and HOW...
why can't they listen and understand and obey?
how can I, be like Jesus who speaks grace into our life, also speak grace into the lives of our young ones so that they know the heart of mine?
Sigh......

Also, I was thinking of my relationship with my love.
Thinking of the trust and faith I have in him, yet at the same time, thinking of the 'what ifs'.
Sometimes, it's a struggle and it becomes weary.
Sometimes, it's renewed and soaring in the skies.
Sometimes, it's just......uncertain.
Believe in the power of LOVE......
Love......hmmmmm......
Sigh......

Let's not think about things for awhile.
For this moment, or rather a few more moments,
let's just live without thinking, let's just live with risks and uncertainties.