okay, i know i shouldnt be here blogging,
at such a time.
but i just gotta do it.
i must say a humongous [SoRRy] to my readers that i dint blog for such a long time.
cos im damn busy with freshman orientation camp planning.
though the planning is tough and complicated,
the results is damn fun la, like totally!
my freshies and leaders all uber HIGH!!!
lols..and we all got very dirty.
mud, flour, butter, soap powder, water, icing sugar, perspiration etc..
BLEAH!!
but FUN!!! =)
woohoo!!!
my freshies all high and active.
i like!!!
school started, new modules, interesting electives, handsome n cute lecturers.
school life is kinda fun.
im gonna climb back up to director's honours list.
my goal for this semester.
just came back from dinner with my ol'gang.
with my gurls and guys and gurls' boyfriends.
all very sugar-high. then we trace back our secondary life.
lols.. ;)
make me laugh.
im really really really happy.
really.
love y'all, don give up on life, its fun!

yesterday i was dressed up like a typical funky arts school student..lols..
sweetie complimented me...heehee..
;)
i want to thank you sweetie, for the special gift and the exceptionally touching message u gave me..it was a total surprise for me..and when i was viewing it i was grinning in front of my laptop la..
my momma thought i was crazy...but she was glad i'm happy. she knew i was laughing from the bottom of my heart.
so sweetie, really really really a BIG thank you to you. -bear hugz-

yesterday's msg was good, pastor talked about intimacy with God and the topic on Forgiveness.
how do we move on without forgiveness...?
how do we unite in Christ with divisions among ourselves?
how are we going to experience breakthrough as the Church of God as well as in our own personal lives if we harbour hatred in our heart?
forgiveness...
its a hard lesson yet its one of the most important one..

i feel so naked when i face the knowledge that God looks into our heart.
we can hide nothing from Him.
He sees us inside out.

i read this article by Rev.Samuel Doctorian, its called"The Visions of Five Angels"
its about Doctorian's visions...they are about the End Times...
they were all bad news..
one line was this 'The Lord said,"The final day has come. Judgement day is here. My love has been refused, now my anger has come."'
i felt sad, i cried when i read it.
why sad, u ask me..?
i dont know..just an overwhelming feeling that came over me...
sigh...
i'll try to post it when i have the time yea..

guess i'll end here..i have nothing to say..
my brain cant work now..i need some sleep...
havent been sleeping very well nowadays..
nitez guys...
^,^

just look at the hole on my big t-shirt, i look like a beggar..ever see a pretty beggar?
well, here's one..lols.. ;)


stop taking! im trying to sleep!& im FAT!!

im now reading up on the topic of bullying.
this book called "The bullied, the bully and the bystanders".
it's interesting and scary at the same time.
i mean, kids and teenagers commit suicide because of being bullied.
i feel i should do something about it, well, at least try to understand the different roles of the bully, bullied and the bystanders.
i realised i've been the bullied(when i was in primary school),then i was the bully(in secondary school, not a very bad one but still...) and now i'm a bystander(trying to help not join in the bullying).
i like this book, im gonna buy myself one(cos i borrowed from the library).

小师妹，真的有那么多事情令你不满意么？生活有什么不好的？生命有起有落，坚强潇洒的面对嘛。何必怀恨在心呢？让自己那么的痛苦。。唉。。。师姐劝你以乐观态度面对生活，赠你两个字：原谅。

Sometimes we get what we need and not what we want..........
Once there were 3 trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the 1st tree said, "Someday, I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems and be decorated with intricate carvings. Everyone would see my beauty."
The 2nd tree said, "Someday, I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of other world. Everyone
will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."
Finally, the 3rd tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up
to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time, and people will always
remember me."
After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. One came to the 1st tree and said, "This
looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he
knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.
At the 2nd tree, one of the other woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The 2nd tree was happy,
because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.
When the woodsmen came upon the 3rd tree, the tree was frightened, because it knew that, if it cuts down, its dream would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, so I'll take this one," and he cut it down.
When the 1st tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into a feed box for animals, placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.
The 2nd tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The 3rd tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.
The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then one filtered day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth, and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.
Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose, and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and
said "Peace," and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.
Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets, and the crowd mocked the man who was carrying it. Finally, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill.
When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as possible, because
Jesus had been crucified on it.
The moral of this story is that, when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts.
Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.
We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.
i hope this passage could inspire more people. Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can't.
GOD BLESS . . . . .